Voice for Peace

Voice for Peace's Journal

April 4, 2013

Better next time. Keep going, keep learning.

I'm not going to hate myself any more, ever again.

I'm here for the child I was, to be the support
and the teacher. The comforter and the guide,
for the broken child in me still wanting and
trying to get well.

We can only go forward from this present
moment. Leave it, rest. Find the beautiful
innocence within you.

April 3, 2013

Bizarro world, truly.

Thanks for your thoughtful post.

I think you're correct there are many ready-made
sociopaths entering or in politics. But for those
who start out with at least some conscience,
the choices they start making, as power becomes
more and more satisfying to them, weakens their
connection to conscience. This heightens their
susceptibility to religion and cult-think.

If your conscience says 'do the right thing'
and you do the wrong thing anyway, it's a bit
uncomfortable. The next time, it's easier. Pretty
soon you're telling your conscience to shut the
fuck up and ignoring it altogether. This is the
seed of sociopathy (my opinion).

Conscience is a beautiful thing and I'm sure one
day there will be found a physiological basis and
site in the brain or something along those lines.
Some physiological proof that it's an evolved
feature of the human machine.

There will be some branches of the species in
which the conscience 'organ' will have devolved
into a tiny little purposeless clump of inactive
cells -- but there will still be a trace that it once
existed as a purposeful thing; and that this creature
without a developed conscience had apparently
branched off from the actual human race. I expect
the Cheney line, among others, has done this.

April 3, 2013

it's a question of Version-of-God vs America.. Version-of-God must come first

and even if people disagree with what Version-of-God
wants from them, they're fearful to end up in Hell,
so that's that.

My theory about why religion is taking over politics:

You can't cheat and deceive, and be at peace with
your own conscience.

So many politicians are anxious, all the time, at a
subterranean level -- because they are ignoring their
own innate conscience, dealing in cheat and deceit,
egomania.

Conscience is built-in for the purpose of guidance in
retaining one's humanity. If a person ignores it
for long enough, there is deep distress at a primal
level.

The only relief for this horror? a belief system in
a Version-of-God Who forgives them everything,
even if they keep right on doing it, and Who agrees
with their politics. (It's a Him, naturally.)

These beliefs are so foreign to the human heart
and conscience, that such people need to keep
ramming it into their own brains, to make it
stick. Like trying to jam a door shut so the
sun can't get in.

April 2, 2013

Arkansas oil spill -- encourage publicity via facebook or other media

https://www.facebook.com/MayflowerArkansasOilSpill

they also have a few other FB pages but this is the one I picked.

thanks!

March 29, 2013

if the money is handy I give it, and don't think about how they'll spend it.

Probably I benefit more from giving than the receiver.

When I acknowledge their humanity by sharing a little
bit of what I have, it fills up my own heart, and that's
my private motivation.

When I give I hope that for a second they feel some
dignity, or kindness or love, and for a moment they
don't feel any shame. That's something, even if it
goes towards drugs or alcohol. A moment can make
a whole lifetime more meaningful.

March 29, 2013

I think the next president might be

the person who will prosecute the crooked bankers,
maybe even some war criminals.

Who would that be?

By that time there well may be major popular support
for a candidate who goes after financial corruption
& thugs in a big way.

Takes a dreamer to make a dream come true,
are you dreaming?

March 24, 2013

a peculiar balloon landing today

not sure where it came down, but it was on or near a busy
street/crowded neighborhood. On or near Rio Grande in
the North Valley near Rte 40

it sat there a while, fires roaring, then deflated and disappeared
from our view.

March 24, 2013

jeez. I know. when you most needed a ton of support and love.

The victim ends up being blamed, almost no matter
what.. because of the after-effects, and how they scar
your life and social relationships. Survivors of sexual
assault, especially of ongoing abuse, become strange
people. Peculiar. Secretive, sad, angry, depressed,
odd. I couldn't speak
for many years throughout childhood and beyond.
Barely, I mean. It was as if there were something
choking me. All the words and feelings couldn't
come out. I was almost always disoriented for one
reason or another. I hated myself because I was
weak, and weird, and choked.

The victims become the weird ones, or the bad,
incorrigible ones. They are shamed in the family
and in the world around. They are punished or
ridiculed, or both. They are lonely. We can often
recognize each other, because the manifestations
are nearly universal, if you know what to look
for.

And I've thought about this a lot, the cycle of
abuse and healing. How we use our damage to
help ourselves and others. I see a weird person
now, & don't see a weird person; I see myself.
I see a man or woman or child, I see a child
who has been profoundly hurt, and been carrying
profound loneliness his/her whole life. I see a
need for kindness, patience, and support.
And when I love, it makes me strong, it makes me heal.