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undergroundpanther

(11,925 posts)
Sun Jul 14, 2013, 01:27 AM Jul 2013

I have had it.

With this world.There are so many things that hurt. My home will be taken and sold,used to have lifetime rights to live here,my sisters have convinced mom to sell this place.I have been living here almost ten years.There is no place for me to go.I will lose everything,my cats my snake,my art stuff,everything will either be picked through or sold. My stupid mom sent me a note saying don't worry,I do not trust my sisters,they are incapable of empathy.My mom has become a connsumate doormat to them,they are selling this house which has no mortgage to buy a condo for my mom who's 84.I want to die.I cannot get motyivated to pack.I am losing it.I broke down crying at my endrocrinologist appointment,and she got so pissed she called my mom and my sisters questioning why and pointing out how cruel they are saying I deserve to be considered in the decision,that I need to be cared about too.Then today my sister called urging me to pack.Later I cried my eyes out in mike's truck going to petsmart to get frozen rats for my snake.Realizing I soon might never see her or my cats again.

mom has land in virginia she could sell. nothing matters they are going to sell this house and I will be homeless.My cats will die in the fucking shelter I dunno what will happen to my snake. My art ,I want to die.There is no place for me in this world.

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I have had it. (Original Post) undergroundpanther Jul 2013 OP
Relax... nebenaube Jul 2013 #1
Sorry to hear man NoOneMan Jul 2013 #2
please DonCoquixote Jul 2013 #3
Do you have income? Check for roomates wanted rainy Jul 2013 #4
I'm so sorry. onpatrol98 Jul 2013 #5
If your mom is 84, she will need a caregiver. They should get a two bedroom condo. applegrove Jul 2013 #6
You need to seek out friends!... Locut0s Jul 2013 #7
I am sorry this is happening to you. easttexaslefty Jul 2013 #8
 

NoOneMan

(4,795 posts)
2. Sorry to hear man
Sun Jul 14, 2013, 01:31 AM
Jul 2013

This world is a meat grinder. Sleep it off

Worse comes to worse, hitch a ride to somewhere new and start fresh, without the past weighing on you. Escape the machine

DonCoquixote

(13,616 posts)
3. please
Sun Jul 14, 2013, 01:31 AM
Jul 2013

get help, and do not do anything rash. I have been in your shoes, and I can tell you, I am glad I did not listen to the devils om my shoulder telling me to end it all.

rainy

(6,092 posts)
4. Do you have income? Check for roomates wanted
Sun Jul 14, 2013, 01:37 AM
Jul 2013

You could find a place. Mindfulness training is a good place to start in learning how to handle life with grace and love no matter what life throws your way. You are alive. Look for peace.

onpatrol98

(1,989 posts)
5. I'm so sorry.
Sun Jul 14, 2013, 01:37 AM
Jul 2013

Some siblings are tough. We have family members who are no longer on speaking terms. Others that have been disowned. I'm always hoping that somehow we will all recover and be a normal family. But, I'm not sure anyone has a normal family.

What about the land in Virginia? Perhaps there will be the opportunity to put something there. I hate to think of your mom as a doormat. But, if she's really...accommodating, perhaps she can help you settle someplace new or with her in the new condo.

Locut0s

(6,154 posts)
7. You need to seek out friends!...
Sun Jul 14, 2013, 02:42 AM
Jul 2013

We are a supporting community here on DU and we are ALWAYS here to lend and listening and compassionate ear. NEVER think differently. But in your situation what you need are supportive friends out in the real world. I know how hard it can be, I basically have none myself and it's made my life far more difficult than it should have been. But in my situation my parents, unlike yours, have been very supportive. They are also a good part of my problem but they have always supported me.

Since your parents and siblings ARE the source of your troubles you need to seek out someone else. Go out, try to meet up with like minded individuals. Go see a movie with someone, get in a book club, there are tons of other gatherings out there where you can meet a friend. You need to get your mind off what is happening and centre your emotional self around other people and other things. Find a hobby and immerse yourself in it so deep that it becomes a part of you, something you can take with you. I realize that these are all very worrisome real world problems but what you may not see if that your reactions to them are the problem, not so much the problems themselves. What is happening to you is horrible but you need to take yourself out of this situation and put yourself somewhere happier, hence the friends and hobbies. See if you can get to a place where the above begins to matter less, because at the end of the day even in the worst case scenario you still HAVE to live and doing so is going to necessitate these things, friends etc, all the more.

As said above if you are in a situation, financially, where you can get help PLEASE do so. Talking all of this out with a therapist can be very therapeutic!!

easttexaslefty

(1,554 posts)
8. I am sorry this is happening to you.
Mon Jul 15, 2013, 08:10 PM
Jul 2013

It's not fair and it's not right.
Could you brainstorm about a plan of action with your therapist? Is there any squatters rights laws in your state?
You will be on my thoughts. Please stay safe and call a hot line if you are in crisis.

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