i'm so fucking sick and tired of this life.

[mopinko]

so, i am in the middle of a giant pile of work that i knew was too much for me from the get go. i just want to tend my little farm, period.
but for a whole bunch of reasons we ended up buying the 2flat adjacent to the lot. even tho i have 2 very dear friends working for me, i am still working to hard, sweating too many things, and doing too much heavy lifting.
and to top it off i have a cracked rib and a fucked up ankle that i broke last year.
i really only get about 4-5 good hours a day, plus some computer time during which i am thinking clearly. it just seems impossible to keep up with anything.

well, at least the 1st floor apartment is ready to rent, which takes a little heat off. we think we have a tenant for the 2nd floor that can't move until may 1, which is fairly reasonable, tho it needs a lot of work.
when all this started we had finally broken down and started repairs on our falling back porch. we got as far as framing, sheeting and windows, then we had to move over to this other project.

just the mental energy- i am sure i have purchased a couple thousand individual items from the hardware store in the last 4 months. my brain is so sore.

i just want to go to bed. i swear after our open house tomorrow i will sleep for 2 days. if only i could get the chickens and the dogs to do the same.

[elleng]

1. Dear mop,

[hedgehog]

2. I wish had half your resolve!

I need to get off my duff now that I'm doing a little better!

[kdmorris]

3. Just reading your post makes me tired

I admire your resolve, as well. We have a ton of things that we need to do before the birth of our twins in June/July and most days, I just don't have the mental (much less physical) energy for it. I'm not sure I realized how hard managing thyroid issues, Diabetes and pregnancy would be (not that I'm complaining!! It's so worth it).

I just feel you on the "I could sleep for two days" front!!

[mopinko]

4. oh, i hope you have someone to coddle you to death!

you win. omg.

[kdmorris]

5. Yeah, my husband (tkmorris) is awesome

He puts up with the mood swings and coddles me to death. I'm pretty sure that he got the raw deal in this (though he says it's me).

[mopinko]

6. oh, it's you.

he can still get away from it, you can't.

[nana sew dear]

7. It is harder than our healthy

friends and family will ever know keeping pace with a normal life let alone one that is on fast forward. Then you have doctors who are afraid to treat chronic pain because the FDA is breathing down their necks. Yup, go ahead and approve the neuro-toxin aspartame but we don't want you to prescribe pain meds to those with a genuine need.
I hope things are going better. I am taking care of my elderly mother. Some days my physical pain along with my mental issues make it almost impossible to do what I need to do.
I will be thinking good thoughts for you.

[mopinko]

8. feeling a little better.

things are cooled off slightly. apartment met deadline, but no tenant. upstairs moving along, waiting to see if the kids who want it will actually come up with the do-re-me.
took a week off to be a farmer, and got mostly caught up with where i need to be. and have a little design project for the chicken enthusiasts, for which i hope i will get some brownie points.
without a deadline i move pretty slow.