i hate not being about to shake horrible dream feelings

[fizzgig]

the only nightmare i have anymore is being back at my old job and i had one of those last night. it woke me up and now i'm super stressed out. i know it was just a dream, but i can't shake it.

what a great way to start the day >_<

[hunter]

1. I know that feeling...

... woke up this morning feeling that way, and no matter what I do the horrible dreams are going to color everything until next I sleep.

I used to be able to literally run away from the gloom, five or ten kilometers, maybe more after an especially rough night, but now my knees and hips are shot, and wake me up in the middle of the night too sometimes.

[fizzgig]

3. it really is the pits

i have another mess of a day coming up at work and i really need to shake this so i can focus.

hope your day isn't too bad

[femmocrat]

2. I hate that , too.

I retired a year ago and still dream about my old job. Ugh.

Last night I had the dream where all my crowns (dental) fell out and the dentist couldn't see me for months.

I hate to dream.

[fizzgig]

4. that is a terrible dream to have

i dream a lot that my clothes disappear while i'm in public and that is always awful. my other stress dream is that i have to move in the morning and nothing is packed.

[femmocrat]

5. Yes! I have the moving dream too.

That must be a common one. It probably means that we are unprepared for something or afraid of change.

Here's to a good night's sleep for both of us: LOL

[BlueJazz]

8. There ARE techniques to control your dreams. It takes a little practice but it can truly..

...make your life better. (or at least, feel better).
I'm at the point that while I can't "Make" a specific dream but I can suggest a dream to myself and I'll get either the actual one or something fun...like having wings and flying around.

[fizzgig]

9. i've had limited luck with lucid dreaming

my conscious mind is there, but i just can't get it to work. doesn't mean i won't keep trying

[BlueJazz]

10. One of the things I started with is keep reminding myself "I'm in charge" almost to the point...

..of annoyance with myself. Kinda' like "Doggone it!, I'M the one having the dream. I'LL change it because I'M IN CHARGE"

Took about a week or so but really changed me for the better.

[fizzgig]

11. i'll try that

thanks

[hunter]

13. Sadly my "in charge" self is quite a bit rougher than I'd like him to be.

The berserker heritage is strong in me. I've had unfortunate relationships with individuals and communities who've encouraged that "in charge" trait.

My crazy grandma, who became a danger to herself and others, fought off the police and paramedics for several hours kicking, hitting, biting, and spewing the most horrible offensive words possible when it came time to remove her from the home she fully owned.

My mom had taken all of grandma's guns she could find when grandma started to get really, really, really strange, but my mom and my sister found a few more guns and boxes of ammunition after that as they were cleaning out her house with grandma in the "assisted" living place.

I like to imagine my grandma wasn't the sort of person who would ever shoot anyone, especially people who were trying to help her, but it's also possible she'd forgotten where she'd hidden the rest of her guns. She was a hoarder. At some point in such a mess as hers it becomes humanly impossible to remember where everything is put. All her burned out light bulbs kept and indexed from the 'forties, and all the Styrofoam fast food boxes, some of them containing ten, twenty, fifty, hundred dollar bills, and the mummified half eaten remains of hamburgers, stashed away just in case, those were taking up too much room in her head.

I know by simple genetics I'm a quarter of my crazy grandma. My grandma's mom was the strongest woman I have ever met aside from my wife's Mexican grandma. My great grandma could make dinner of fish, small mammals, or birds faster than your eyes could follow. Her knives were extensions of her hands.

I'm a pacifist because I have to be. It's a family tradition. My women ancestors probably killed or neutered a few bad men. Genghis Khan was was ended by a girl.

My ancestors were American Wild West crazy white people. They'd fled Europe and the British Isles and not settled in more civilized America because they were fearful of encountering anyone who knew them in their previous lives across the Atlantic Ocean.

My most recent immigrant ancestor was a mail order bride to Salt Lake City. She didn't like sharing a husband and ran away.

I've run away from a few bad situations myself, most especially those I've felt too much "in charge."

Running away from trouble is in my blood. It's a survival trait.

My garden is organic. I live without any desire to control anything. I simply try to encourage the life I want to be an element of.

[BlueJazz]

14. I must say: You have a fascinating heritage. Perhaps your ancestors developed a strong survival

..mechanism to protect your "line".

"My women ancestors probably killed or neutered a few bad men." That may not be such a bad thing!
"I simply try to encourage the life I want to be an element of." I like that !

[RobinA]

16. I Have This!

Only I'm vacation and it's time to come home. I have a TON of stuff, and every time I look there's more!

[LiberalEsto]

6. I'm so sorry, fizzgig

Maybe you can find something distracting to do that will take your mind off it.

[fizzgig]

7. i'm feeling a bit better

called my mom and loved on the kittehs. still feeling out of sorts, but not as bad as when i woke up.

[alarimer]

12. Dreams are weird.

The disturbing ones are hardest to shake.

I dreamed last night I was taking Stephen Fry to the airport, an hour before my own flight. But I forgot my stuff at home and needed to go back for it. I didn't have time for that, so had to make do with what I could buy there. Oh, and I brought a cat. To the airport and not in a carrier.

[Dont call me Shirley]

15. Hope you're feeling better now, fizzgig.

I hate dreams with dirty water. It means I'm going to have an emotional upheaval.

I love dreams with clean water, peace and serenity.

[IDemo]

17. I know that feeling

There are several themes that seem to replay again and again. My first day on a new job at a gargantuan campus, walking endless straight hallways to nowhere. Driving downtown into heavy traffic, doing a U-turn and back out.

I actually ended a night's sleep last week with this final observation (or words much like it): "There's nothing more left for us. We are just the actors in Rove's run". Now there's a nightmare!