Late night rabblings.....

[Lady Freedom Returns]

Got so much going through my mind. So much to do and think about.

Fighting with Disability. They keep saying I can do like customer service work. Be nice, just a couple of snags. My vision still stinks (seeing an eye specialist early next month) and I can't use my right hand to type.

Talked to others that has filed before. Seems they turn people down a few times before they approve. They said to just keep filing. They will finally listen to the doctors eventually. They also talk about back pay, but not sure what they mean.

Thanks to a kind person out there, I can get a new birth certificate (just waiting now, government takes a while). So I have taken myself off the wait lists for assistance with getting one. There are a lot of people trying to get theirs.

Big thing is there are a few programs out there that specializes in helping disabled in my situation. But need a birth certificate for their records. So fingers crossed I'll get it before they fill up.

Need to get to a clothing bank to get some jeans. I'm down to 195 pounds so my old ones don't fit. Think the weight loss is due to eatting less. My condition seems to make me want to eat less, so my stomach can't handle how I used to eat. I eat 5 small meals at the most. And and my constant drinking of water, can't get enough of the stuff. Problem is that I don't know what my size is now.

It's quiet tonight. Odd for a Friday night / Saturday morning. Better quiet than noisy I guess.

Think I'll go visit Trooper tommorow.

Think weekends are the worse. That and the waiting for the red tape to breakdown.

You don't really know how much you miss working till really can't do it. Makes me feel helpless, not a feeling I'm use to.

I'm also getting real sick of my memory lately. Things I used to remember just like that, taking me forever to remember. Have to write everything down to help me remember stuff like doctors appointments, to remember to take meds and that I took them. It sucks.

Well, guess I've rambled on long enough. For those that had the patience and/or time to spare to read this, thank you for putting up with my wondering mind.

[emmaverybo]

1. I know that it is hard to get disability the first time or two, but people in the know can help.

They do pay retroactively from the first time you applied, even if turned down.So if your application comes in to them Jan. 1st, then whatever happens, however long it takes them to finally ok, they will give you the amount of money they would have paid those months from Jan 1st in addition. You won’t get that until they accept. So you keep trying. You just will need people in the know to help with the application.

[Thunderbeast]

2. Disability lawyers are regulated

Their fee is limited to 1/3 of the back pay.

[CTyankee]

3. The goddam ethos in this country is "work them to death."

They think it's somehow immoral to have a disability and not be able to work. Most people want to work and work at meaningful jobs.

It's sad and criminal what is being done to you and so many others.

Please let us know what happens.