A Challenger engineer blamed himself for 30 years. Then this 'miracle' happened.
A Challenger engineer blamed himself for 30 years. Then this miracle happened.
By Colby Itkowitz February 25
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Since that tragic day, Ebeling has blamed himself. He always wondered whether he could have done more. His daughter, Kathy Ebeling, said he had even entertained bringing his hunting rifle to work Jan. 28, 1986 to threaten NASA not to launch thats how certain he was that the shuttle was going to explode.
That day changed him, Kathy Ebeling, who was 35 then, said in an interview. He became despondent and withdrawn. He quit his job not long after, unable to face it the MURDERER in graffiti on the overpass on his ride to work, the constant reminder of how NASA failed. He spent the rest of his working life on a bird refuge because there it was about helping people and not destroying people, she said.
Hes 89 and is dying now. He has bladder and prostate cancer; the family has brought in hospice. But thanks to hundreds of public radio listeners, he finally has some peace.
Ebeling spoke to NPR for the 30th anniversary of the Challenger explosion last month. Remarkably, he had spoken anonymously to the same reporter three weeks after the explosion, but now he was ready to speak publicly. He sadly recalled the day and described his three decades of guilt.
I think that was one of the mistakes that God made, Ebeling told NPR. He shouldnt have picked me for the job. But next time I talk to him, Im gonna ask him, Why me? You picked a loser.
But listeners didnt hear a loser. And they sent hundreds of e-mails and letters to NPR and directly to Ebeling telling him so, NPR first reported Thursday.
His daughter, reached at their Utah home, said shes been reading him the letters. Engineering teachers said they use him as an example of good ethical practice. Professionals wrote that because of his example they are more vigilant in their jobs.
But there was one person that made him finally start to believe he wasnt to blame.
Allan McDonald, who was Ebelings boss, reached out after the NPR interview aired to tell him that he had done everything he could have done to warn them, including calling Kennedy Space Center to try and stop the launch.
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Its wonderful, its like a miracle, Kathy Ebeling said. Its starting to change his mind that he doesnt feel so guilty, so thats a miracle. Thirty years of guilt is long enough.
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haikugal
(6,476 posts)SoLeftIAmRight
(4,883 posts)...
eppur_se_muova
(36,274 posts)NASA was under pressure not to spoil a perfect Hollywood moment.
catrose
(5,068 posts)But I thought at the time that it smacked of politics.
Xipe Totec
(43,890 posts)I was in a meeting downtown in the old Tenneco building. A buddy of mine, who knew I had worked on Shuttle, came in and told me that the Challenger was destroyed. I felt as if somebody had punched me. I had left the program more than two years before then, but my first thought was to wonder if I had done something wrong. Was it my fault? Did I screw up? It didn't matter that I worked on reentry and the failure occurred during ascent. I still felt connected. I still felt as if, somehow, I was responsible.
On the way home, traveling south on interstate 45, towards League City, all I could see was American flags at half mast on both sides of the freeway. Mile upon mile of flags at half mast, from the fanciest business complexes to the grubbiest garages, all of Houston was in mourning.
As I write this, I look up above my monitor and see a poster hanging on the wall. It is the Challenger on it's maiden flight; the external tank painted white like a bride's gown. On the bottom right hand corner a simple caption reads, congratulations, America.
Sure, I remember that day...
as if it was yesterday.
http://journals.democraticunderground.com/Xipe%20Totec/38
virtualobserver
(8,760 posts)Some one rushed in to the meeting that I was in and said, "the Shuttle blew up"
Everyone just froze....it was unthinkable.....we had begun to think of those flights as almost routine.
My father worked for a NASA contractor at JSC. I took the same route that day home to League City.
It was strange to hear you describe the essential layout of my day.
JimDandy
(7,318 posts)Didn't realize at first what was happening, because I thought it was a part of the rocket that was supposed to fall off. Within a few seconds it was clear from the conversation, though, that a disaster was occurring. I was in college for an elementary teaching degree at the time and the "teacher in space" caught my fancy, so I was watching.
Morton Thiokol's O-ring-will never forget.
Poor guy.
LiberalElite
(14,691 posts)at work and a normally very cheery person entered my department. I said 'why so glum, chum?" She said the Challenger exploded...
SoapBox
(18,791 posts)Was off from work that day...and living in Phoenix at the time.
SoLeftIAmRight
(4,883 posts)The future and the past mingled.
Live and Learn
(12,769 posts)How many of us have tried to warn management of impending disaster (not quite on that scale, of course) and been ignored? I think it is probably pretty common. The worst part is that after the worst happens they usually don't admit you warned them.
Would have been nice it he could have heard those words sooner but at least he got to hear them.