I lost one of my sweet feral cats this morning...
I was walking back from the gym and saw something in the road and feared the worse...it was her. I went up and she was badly hurt, unconscious, but still breathing...since I was walking I tried calling Animal Control and some others who could come and put her down quickly...I couldn't believe she was still alive...got no one, so I picked her by the scruff and to the side of the road...fortunately she went quickly after that. I don't think she was truly feral, but was abandoned when she was young...a skittish kitteh no one wanted. I don't know why she was in the road...it was a ways from where I feed in the park and she lived. I'd been feeding her for 7 years and I had gotten her fixed a while back. Two hours earlier I was feeding her. I feel terrible. 
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K&R!
godspeed, sweet kittie.
Poor baby.
She was blessed to have you care for her...so many abandoned furbabies live a horrible existence. Seven years is a long time to care for a feral; you will certainly have a big hole in your heart. 
We all go eventually, and no one wants to do it alone.
I'm so sorry. You did so much for her by getting her fixed so she wouldn't be attacked every time she was in heat and so she wouldn't have litter after litter, making more ferals. You fed her and she knew that you cared about her. And in the end, you were there for her. That's the most love anyone showed for her. And she knew it.
There are feral cats in our neighborhood - or there were. One by one we've noticed they're not around anymore. Neighbors give up on 'em because they want to stay outside and won't come back in, so they become "outdoor cats." And we live in a canyon area with lots of coyotes and ring-tailed hawks. It's really sad. Month after month, there are handmade signs posted on the light poles and telephone poles - "MISSING" - either cat or small dog. It breaks my heart.
I kept hoping I could catch that one kitty, Butterscotch, and bring her inside, so she might have a chance to avoid being dinner for the coyotes we hear sometimes at night, howling in the not-too-distant distance, but when I tried, she bit me hard. and I had to let go. That was awhile ago. Every now and then she'd pop up in the yard and eat the kibble I set out for her but she never came close. And now we don't see her anymore. In our neighborhood, it's a pretty safe bet what happened to her.
I know that terrible loss. But just remember how much love and comfort you gave her. Both of you were blessed to have each other.
All you can do is be by their side as they pass and your were good person of hers
Take care
Feral neutering is a good program you helped the cat lead a healthier life but we can't control all activity in the world unfortunately
Sad
{{{Kitteh}}}
7 years is a long time to care and love a cat.
