Just.So.Done.
regardless that the state of things is so shitty and my hometown is being ravaged by tourists who are spreading this disease...and I fear for myself and my teens out there working with the "public"
My bathroom flooded and ruined my already nasty dog pee carpet, so I rippedout a 5x6 foot chunk down to the floorboards and am trying not to feel like I ruined my house
washing machine broke a few months ago so now all the nasty towels and such need to be taken to the laundromat
and I'm broke
dog needs dental surgery and has a growth in her mouth and we cant even set a date cuz I dont have the funds
been on & off disability for the past 2 years and I just cant seem to get my groove back
sat in the tub and cried for a half hour
I feel like everything is falling apart around me and I cant FIX it
feels like everything I touch is shit
maybe it would be fine of I got this damn virus and just checked the fuck OUT
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We're in the last stretch and it is rougher by the day, but we have to be survivors. We are all victims of Trump and so are those interpellated tourists plaguing your area. Change will happen and relief, too. It won't be overnight, but it is approaching. People are stretched to their breaking point.
History is full of suffering and hardship. The sun will come up and we will see a new dawn.
Have hope and find some more of your grit. You've been hanging on and your dog loves you even though you can't afford a vet right now.
We will prevail.
Please hang in there. I have been in your position many times where I have felt that everything was crumbling down around me and nothing could get worse. It sounds trite, but the best thing you can do right now is to take care of YOURSELF and let everything else work itself out. Just do what you can right now to make yourself feel better. The problems will be there later when you feel better. Do what you need to do to soothe your soul.
I know you have to deal with the dog and the laundry, but sometimes I have found when I am at my lowest and I just let go and ask for help, amazing things can happen. Do what you can to feel better now and you will deal with the other things when you have more strength. You don't have to do it all alone. Reach out for help - family, friends, social services, etc.
I have always found that when I was at the end of my rope, it was because I was trying to solve all my problems alone from a very dark place. Is there a good friend or family member you can call? Do you have health insurance? Can you see a therapist or social worker? Any support is better than trying to figure it all out by yourself. I am a very independent person, so it's hard for me to reach out, but when I do, things always get better. I wish you the best of luck with everything.
Please keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. 
just glad I have my DU Family to hold me in the light when I am in the dark
will use throw rugs till I can redo the floors through the whole house
waiting on a settlement from my car accident last year, hope that will help
it's just that "in the middle time" and I hit a freaking WALL today 
