Having a bad day today. Some days are better than others.

[hamsterjill]

Some days are better and some are just hard. Today was rough. No real reason other than the cumulative effect of all that is happening.

I’m unemployed and have filed for unemployment benefits but there’s some hiccup and I can’t get through to talk to anyone and get it fixed. Online resources don’t handle my situation evidently. I’ll keep trying.

I know one person who has died from the virus that worked at a Costco, and i know one who has recovered and is now donating plasma. The latter worked for my most recent employer and very likely got the virus soon after I was let go at the first of March. So help me I believe it a real possibility that my immediate supervisor had the virus in late January and would not stop coming to work. A martyr of course. She insisted that she had tested positive for the flu, but I never felt the symptoms fit for a flu as she was ill, then felt better and then became sick all over. I believe it’s a possibility that the gentleman now recovered contracted it from her. So, I feel lucky in some sense to have gotten away from that situation.

I just really see no path forward for any true economic recovery for the country. I mean, who the fuck are we kidding??? I’m in my early sixties and I feel bad for myself, but I feel worse for the people who have kids to support, etc.

I wish this country had a leader who could inspire some confidence and help me feel differently. I want us to be America again and sadly, I don’t think we are any more and won’t be again in my lifetime.

I want to get out and help in some way but that’s really not possible right now. So I guess I’m just feeling a little worthless. Sad and down. Yet always grateful.

Tomorrow I’ll try to have a better perspective. Thanks for listening. Anyone else experiencing some days being worse?

[Skittles]

1. just know someone is always here on DU, hampsterjill

and we care......keep us updated

I'm not really experiencing wild swings but there's just kind of one day bleeding into the next feeling, a melancholy - like you, I wonder about how tough it is for people with kids or very elderly parents and don't even get me started on the medical folk

[hamsterjill]

6. Thanks, Skittles.

Yes, the medical people. So brave. So compassionate.

And I know if I need anyone’s ass kicked, I can count on you to help!!! LOL

Sending hugs!

[FM123]

2. Yes, some days really are better/worse than others.

Sending you much love and virtual hugs!

[hamsterjill]

7. Thanks.

Right back to you!

[LeftInTX]

3. So many people knew the woman who worked at Costco

I feel I should be helping people, but I'm in a funk. I'm overwhelmed and doing nothing. We are supposed to be texting people in our precinct, but I haven't done it yet. Also every day stuff is now such a hassle. My state rep needs community liasons, I should be contacting him. We have zoom meetings, but we have trouble remembering them. My last remaining aunt died yesterday (not of Covid, but old age) ...

I guess I should get out there and walk, and get some exercise, but it was 98 today...(Yuk) Good news is high will be only 83 tomorrow!

Hang in there!

[hamsterjill]

8. Yes. Hot in SA!!! Right?

Yes, it was so sad about Josie! I followed her ordeal via Facebook and she fought so hard!!! Such a sweet soul.

I hear what you’re saying. So hard to get motivated! But we keep trying, right?

My sincere sympathies on the passing of your aunt. Sending hugs.

[LeftInTX]

13. Thank you

[Tech]

4. I definitely zig zag on how I am feeling. You are not alone.

[hamsterjill]

9. Thanks.

If there was simply a concrete plan!!!! But we have nothing!

So infuriating!

[emmaverybo]

5. Yes. Some days very blue. But, like you reminded me, I am grateful personally. Still, I could

use a bit of commiseration today so thanks an a hug. Also, so sorry about your aunt. I have no remaining Immediate family. Quarantine just brings it all up. I too think I should volunteer. Exercise. Something...little victories over inertia are good too. Yesterday’s was grocery shopping.

[hamsterjill]

15. I basically accomplish one thing per day.

I had to go on a grocery run on Wednesday. That was literally ALL I got accomplished. I’m distracted, not motivated and in disbelief. We all are.

Thanks for your post. It was actually LeftInTx (post above) who lost her aunt, so she will appreciate your sentiments.

Take care and be well.

[DarthDem]

10. So sorry to hear this :(

Up and down days are definitely, unquestionably normal. I'm so sorry you are having a bad one today. It will get better and we will get through this!! The American economy will come back as will the world's, to address the specific point you made. In fact it may very well come back with a better role for unions, more government regulation, and more caring policies rather than raging vulture capitalism. Have hope!! I hope you feel better very, very soon.

[hamsterjill]

11. I do hope you are right!

I admire optimism right now. I really do. Optimism gives us hope.

I would like to think that we, as a nation, will have learned something from all of this. Hopefully, the majority of us will. But there will always be the others.

I saw a post today from a Trumper that was reacting to Elizabeth Warren’s brother dying. The poster wrote, “well he was 86 and had cancer”.

I immediately had tears. It wasn’t only his death. It was that he was alone when he died. The sadness. The despair.

Those types don’t understand the compassion. We do. So we’ve simply got to outnumber them!

Be well!

[DarthDem]

18. Exactly right and well said!

You be well too.

[Meowmee]

12. Feel better, sorry you are down

I have covid and double pneumonia, it looks like I am one of the lucky ones since I seem not to be getting the severe effects. I still feel exhausted and it is taking a long time to recover. The terrible back pain from the pneumonia is a bit better now tg. I am exhausted. I did feel depressed today. I am so exhausted and I just want this to be over.

Maybe it is in part all of the stress which has been awful. I have had some video visits with my doc the past 2 weeks. She said today I have to isolate until no fever/ coughing etc. which could be weeks due to the pneumonia. She said they don’t redo the chest xray for a month with pneumonia because it doesn’t change much. She says no one knows for sure about whether you will have immunity after surviving it which seems crazy to me. They really don’t know much. She said to wait on the antibody testing until there are better tests. She said get as much rest as possible. I do feel better with rest and light activity. I have always been that way. I tend to get sick when I do too much.

Somehow I find that hard to believe about the xray. If I am improving it should show on an xray. I still wonder if something else could be going on with me since I have a lot of other health conditions but there is no easy way to find out. It is either the freezing cold field er where they are limited in what they can do or a clinic that will take covid patients, there I would have to worry about exposure etc. and they can’t do more than a simple x ray and listen etc.

Fortunately I have cut off all forms of news etc. except reading a limited amount online. We are getting some very aggressive callers again asking for donations for supposed dem causes, what is it with them? I hung up on one last night. I am not thinking about all the other stuff for now for the most part.

[hamsterjill]

16. Oh goodness. I'm so sorry to learn this.

Thank you for sharing your situation and please know that (as is my practice) I’ve said a prayer for your complete and speedy recovery.

When you feel up to it, would you please share your treatment regimen?

Until then, I hope you will rest and give your body the time and peace that it needs to mend. If you ever need to talk, please reach out. We are here.

Sending hugs.

[Meowmee]

20. Thanks 💕

I was on z pack started when my back pain started. Then got chest x ray at the field hospital which confirmed covid like pneumonia. Test was neg but doc says it is false neg.

I am monitoring at home. Using a few different inhalers because I have asthma as well. But since my pain got worse last night again and I had to use the inhaler which I did not use the day before I wonder if that is what made me worse? I have to email my doctor and ask.

I was doing breathing exercises at first I’m trying to go for walks and it was making me worse so I have stopped up. My doctor told me just to rest a lot and I do seem to feel better when I rest.

For the pain I am using lidocaine patches on my back which helps a lot, Tylenol and if it is severe heavy duty pain killer. Also I pretty much lying on a heating pad most of the time when I am resting. That helps too.

I have type 1 diabetes and my blood sugar has been crashing like crazy through all of this so I have been drinking like six or seven juice packs a day normally. Which is giving me vitamin C and I believe that is helping with the pneumonia too. Last night with my dinner I tried some buffered vitamin C and water and I’m going to see how that goes. I have terrible Gerds and reflux and I have been unable to take vitamin C in any type of supplementation, I have to get it through my diet normally.

I have had a low fever on and off from 99 to 100.1. Now I don’t seem to have the fever very much although it did seem to go up to 99.5 once or twice in the late evening to the morning. The past two days. People told me not to treat a low fever so I have not been treating that however when I was taking the Tylenol for pain that might have reduced a fever I don’t know.

I am drinking lots of chamomile tea, and green tea once per day. I was drinking other teas I have for viruses and colds but they had peppermint and I felt like they were irritating my reflux and my lungs etc. I often have this weird itchy feeling in the bronchial area I don’t know if that’s from the pneumonia.

I used to get chronic bronchitis as a child. My pediatrician at the time gave me a series of shots because he said I was allergic to my own bacteria. I did that for six weeks and after that the chronic bronchitis stopped. I hardly ever get it now only once in a Blue-moon. When this started I thought it was bronchitis at first and I did not realize something was different until I started getting the severe back pain.

I have never had pneumonia so I don’t know what that is like but one of my friends had a terrible bout with a fungal pneumonia over the summer- she was in the hospital for a while. and then she was an oxygen for a few weeks at home after- she still had severe pain at home continued. . She is also a type one. She said she had pain mostly in her right upper back area which is where a lot of mine is but it also goes into the middle of my back as well. I also feel like I have a rubber band tightening around my ribs on and off too.

One of the days I took a sugar-free unsweetened herbal cough drop that I get at Whole Foods when I had more coughing and irritation and it seemed to help. Wondering if I should try that for the itching feeling too. I’m just concerned although the inhalers help me to breathe better that they may also be irritating my lungs. My doc had put me on a steroid inhaler as well as albuterol however I have not used it because steroids are supposed to be bad for covid. She said she thinks only the oral prednisone would be not the inhaler but I don’t know.

Overall I have not had a huge amount of coughing but there are days when I have more coughing and when I use the inhaler I cough up more stuff but I don’t have a lot of congestion coming out.

Another thing I have noticed is that if I don’t eat on time and frequently my back pain gets worse. It also seems to get worse with more activity although yesterday I got worse and I didn’t do as much. I am very curious to see if anybody else who has covi pneumonia and pain or another viral pneumonia and pain has also had this reaction. So far no one I have talked to had that happen to them.

[ooky]

14. Your statement "I wish this country had a leader who could inspire some confidence

and help me feel differently."

I can't imagine any of us who aren't thinking that right now. Day after day of listening to him speak brings a horrific realization that we each don't just have to find a way to survive this pandemic; on top of it, we must somehow survive this imbecile's stupidity. It's mind numbing.

[hamsterjill]

17. It really is mind boggling.

I can’t believe the idiot hasn’t been run out of town on a rail already. The fact that people still enable and defend him is complete and utter absurdity.

Take care of yourself!

[diva77]

19. Somebody on a tweet referred to the days of the week as "blursday"

LOL! As far as doing something, some Dem clubs are doing remote canvassing - maybe you can contact your local organization and look into making campaign calls