"Sudden thoughts and second thoughts"
I'm driving into work this Saturday morning at 5:15 and it occurs to me that the reason, the REASON that Apocalyptic films and TV shows are so popular is that people want to envision a world wherein all their commitments are erased at a stroke: bills, bad jobs, bad relationships, bad politics, and the like. Yes, it is unlikely that they'd survive, but each of us to an extent has a heroic-fantasy aspect to our personalities, and perhaps we'd be among the few who'd survive. In the film "2012" you see the car careening through the city while hundreds of thousands perish horribly around it, and yet our only concern is for those in the automobile and whether they make it through. We see ourselves in the car and really only care about ourselves in that moment. At that instant, all the loans are cancelled, it no longer matters whether the boss is going to fire you, or whether your next door neighbor's dog barks incessantly every night at 2 AM. The paradigm shift is exhilarating...
And then I thought: suppose I were in desperate financial straights and went to the Mob to borrow money and worked out a deal to repay them in money and services rendered. Of course, you couldn't get me to say a bad thing about them and might actually become a champion of theirs because without their ongoing existence my life would be altered for the "much worse". In fact I might wind up identifying with the aggressor so to speak and become their advocate whenever possible. They would never have to remind me of the multitudinous ways that they could ruin me since it is a given and certainly part of the deal, as we know it must be. And so it is in the WH. It's just that simple.
Oh well, off to digging holes and filling them...just some thoughts on a quiet and very very cold Saturday morning before sunrise...
