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...and right now, I'm missing her something fierce.
I've had a few more crying fits than usual, despite thinking that I've been able to move on with my grieving process. But yesterday I participated in a 5K walk/run for ovarian cancer survivors in her memory - Ginny was a 25-year survivor of stage IV. I carried her picture with me for the entire course. I think Ginny would have been happy with the outpouring of support and love from so many at the run who didn't even know who she was. The organizers even gave me a survivor's shirt to wear on her behalf.
There are still some legal matters to settle, and my attorney has been very patient in helping me with the whole process. Hopefully I can get that finalized in a couple of days so that I can move on a little further. Right now, everything is up in the air, and I think the uncertainty of my current situation is getting to me.
At this time, Ginny and I were supposed to be working for our Democratic candidates, hitting the phone banks, maybe knocking on some doors, and getting ready to staff the election site once again. As a team. Wife and husband, working together. And even though I made it to the state convention on my own, the lingering effects of Ginny's passing and my unemployment have taken the wind out of my sails.
So, tomorrow I begin the process of lifting myself up. Finding work. Talking to a counselor. Getting my own affairs in order. Depending on how things play out, I may even have to find a new home. I hope not, but like I said earlier, it's all up in the air.
Please bear with me, folks - it's still going to be a bumpy ride.
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