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Edited on Tue Jun-15-10 05:17 AM by Locut0s
I probably don't post here enough for anyone to remember who I am. I've had life long issues with anxiety and depression and have dropped in and out of university probably 5 or 6 times because of it, ruining a 4.0 GPA going in. At any rate that's all past history. Some time back I got a job at 7-11 and worked my way up to assistant manager and acting manager. However the stress of the position combined with a return of my anxiety issues caused me to start drinking. I was drinking about a bottle of vodka every few days at the worst point. Well obviously that couldn't last too long as I ended up walking off the job. Long story short, while I have not gotten over my anxiety and depression issues I have made some big strides since then. For one I stopped drinking, except at family functions and the like, and I have lost 65 pounds down to 195 from 260 (I now work out hard every day). Yesterday I also landed my first job since I quite. It's nothing special, just a sales associate position at a local Futureshop (the equivalent of Best Buy in the US) but it's better than nothing I guess. I'm planning to look for something better while working there. I also have a few more clear-cut goals I've lined up for myself. One is to get out of my parents hours, still living at home with ma and pa at 28. Another is to get a girlfriend, social anxiety as seen to this not happening yet in my life I'm afraid :( The last is to save up some more money and go back to school once most other aspects of my life are in order. I already have about 55K in savings from the time I worked in 7-11, which I'm not touching, so I'm lucky in this respect I can probably go back to get a degree at any time really but I don't feel comfortable yet. That degree will likely be in computer science and mathematics which I already have about 1/4 of from previous attempts. Either that or Physics, or any one of several sciences I really enjoy (One of my problems is I have too many interests lol). So all in all things are starting to look a little brighter. I still deal with a certain amount depression and anxiety but it's at a fairly manageable level all in all.
Oh and yes I have been on meds for some time now, 3 or 4 years, which does help. I saw one counselor when I was at my worst but she said that they would not treat me till I stopped drinking, which I have now. I have thought of going back to counselling, which I may do in the long run.
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