I'm sorry about yesterday, I don't know if you caught it, but my pills slipped up.

[originalpckelly]

I'm such a screw up sometimes I wonder how I make it day to day. I'm sorry to anyone who I might have offended. :cry:

I'm also trying to overcome an addiction as well, you guys really need to forgive me. When I was at the psych ward I went to an AA meeting, and it just hit a chord with me, and that's when I realized how screwed up I was. I'm now trying to deal with the problems I had. :cry:

Probably have all this trauma from when I was a kid still to this day.

[auntAgonist]

1. Don't be too hard on yourself.

:hug:

[babylonsister]

2. Hi.

I've read that there'd be a constant audible moan throughout the world if we could hear what other people are going through. I believe it.

Here's a hug, and good luck with your struggles, originalpckelly. :hug:

[tridim]

3. I think we were all worried something was amiss.

Stay strong and get well.

[originalpckelly]

6. You guys are almost always right about me.

I really just needed to have some help. I feel admitting my addiction problem has lifted this massive burden from my shoulders.

[EOTE]

11. Good to hear from you.

Sorry if I've been harsh in the past, I know I've said some stupid things. Glad to hear you're getting help and I wish you all the best.

[Warpy]

4. Everybody screws up

The only problem comes when you don't do anything about it.

You're not on my ignore list, so you couldn't possibly have screwed up that badly.

Good luck with AA. It really does work if you work it.

[peekaloo]

5. .

:hug:

[myrna minx]

7. Don't be so hard on yourself, kelly.

We care about you. Take care. :hug:

[originalpckelly]

9. What hurts most is that my addiction + craziness has separated me...

from two of the best friends I ever had, the two people I've ever felt love for in this world. That's how screwed up I am. :cry: If only I could make it up to them somehow, and maybe one day be reunited with them. I should just give up though, AA specifically says I shouldn't make amends with people who might be hurt worse, and I think I can only do more damage now.

[myrna minx]

12. The best thing you can do is be good to yourself.

You may be able to reunite with your dear friends in the future, but the key is to mend you own heart. I know your friends will be overjoyed for you, that you are working on getting better. I've had a loved one who was bi-polar and off his meds, and I was never more terrified. He did eventually get help and through a lot of hard work, he is now in a much brighter place and I couldn't be more proud of him.

I know you feel lost, confused and guilty, but you will come out of this--there is hope. :hug:

[shadowknows69]

8. May positive things, peace and strength come to you pckelly

And there's always a few hundred shoulders here too.

[originalpckelly]

10. I need them all to get me through this crap.

:cry: :hug:

[shadowknows69]

13. I live in Crapville myself.

And I've been very close to being where you are. If I still live and breathe then anyone can make it is what I'm trying to say. Hope that helps. If not feel free to tell me to go fuck myself lol. I won't take it personally.
S

[JohnnyLib2]

14. "trying to deal with the problems"

Glad to hear it. Sometimes I think "one day at a time" is the best rope to grab.

[Javaman]

15. I had an idea something was up...

after your post regarding what was going on in your life and the cause of your original banning, I was, at first surprised at your "ranting", then remembered what was going on.

It's all good, we all backslide. Life, you know?

but in the future, I would highly suggest, wearing oven mitts before approaching the key board. :)

Cheers.

[shadowknows69]

16. As one who frequently goes "crazy" on here and in my real life

Although I try to do most of it in my bad poetry on here, I understand well. In my opinion if this life doesn't drive you crazy at least once, you're not paying attention.