I am at work. I am hating on someone.

[babydollhead]

I usually never feel like this. I work as a care taker to a hundred year old building during events. I'm feeling it toward the caterers wife. The way it manifests is that I cannot look her in the eye for very long without this horrid closing sensation in my chest. Sometimes I realize that this must be how she feels all the time. I don't have to feel it. My natural state is joshing.

[rateyes]

1. Hope you get it worked out.

[babydollhead]

4. thanks

for the first time I had this feeling like I am talking to people, I didn't realize that I'm lonely for conviviality.

[roody]

2. Breathe!

[babydollhead]

6. thanks.

if all we have to do is breathe in and old and just be in the moment, why is it so hard?

[kirby]

3. Maybe that is why McSame couldnt look Obama in the eye? n/t

[babydollhead]

5. He must have noticed wincing peers and felt unseen.

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[The Backlash Cometh]

7. Um. That's how I react to most people I encounter on a daily basis.

Though I wouldn't call it hating. I just don't trust them, like I wouldn't trust a rabid animal.

[babydollhead]

9. Yeah, I get it.

But this closing in feeling was full of a hot liquid gurgle.

[The Backlash Cometh]

16. Can't help you there but to share some experience.

You'll harm yourself more if you allow them to make you feel this way, but if you have to work around them, your choices are limited. As soon as you can, find a way to get yourself away from that environment. You'll see, in time, this person that makes you feel so ill, will get their dose of karma. It always happens. The only thing you should pray for is, that when it happens, God lets you have a front row seat to see it.

If you get that opportunity, you might even discover that it doesn't bring you the thrill you thought it would.

[babydollhead]

8. Meanwhile,

the bride and groom just came in and invited me out to the party. They must have felt the plea for company. fuck em' I'd rather be with you all.

[Sal Minella]

11. Come back later and tell us about the party! Go have a good time!

[babydollhead]

13. It's so loud and smoky and drunk out there.

[Sal Minella]

15. Yuck. And nobody is bringing you good reading material like lib2Da just did.

Interesting food for thought, there. Much better than drunk and loud. But I do remember when I thought drunker and louder was the road to more fun. Yuck.

[renate]

14. they must be nice people...

... that was very sweet of them. You should go! It sounds like their energy is much better than the caterer's wife. Go have a good time!

[lib2DaBone]

10. Umm..yes... I know what you are saying.. I have been there..

Here are a few links. I know what is going on... but I can't give you a definitive answer...hope this helps.


http://healing.about.com/cs/empathic/a/uc_empathtraits.htm

http://www.drjudithorloff.com/

[babydollhead]

12. Thank you

I read the first one it's a really good article. I felt like googling the author and digging on each other. I am so close to my surface tonight.