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I hope all this "awareness" spread around recently about painkiller addiction does not get the public yammering for the paranoid DEA to find an excuse to remove access to pain medicine for those with chronic pain. because people can and do get addicted.
People can get life in jail for possessing a joint,but a murderer can get as little as 6 months? WTF?
http://digg.com/odd_stuff/Black_guy_gets_life_for_smoking_potThere is something very wrong here. It stinks.
I find it strange how all these people, NOW of all times,are coming forth with their pain killer addiction stories.(of course they are no longer in pain now)
As I was looking for the weather channel today I saw there was someone famous(can't remember her name offhand) on Oprah telling her story of addiction.I hear alot about this issue recently.I saw a commercial warning adults teens could be pilfering grandma's drugs...Why NOW all this attention.?
Ironic Bush made sure the poppy fields in Afghanistan were not razed down..Why?? Prisons are private corporations..Bush's ownership society is meant as an Orwellian word...
I worry about this issue for several reasons, because Joe Q.Public is 30 points shy of being retarded. So I fear there will be a backlash against prescribed pain killers, A scapegoating process of the people who need them. Like making it so they can't get them or must jump through 1,001 hoops,to QUALIFY for them, and I fear unwarranted suspicion of legit doctors who DO prescribe them. I fear it. Why?
The main reason is I have ruptured disc's squishing some the nerves coming out from my spine in several disc's and let me tell you neuropathy is all about horrible unrelenting PAIN.I never thought I'd be one of those people looking into Pain Management say 6 years ago.The pain hurts so bad sometimes it makes me wish I was dead. It hurts THAT bad..I can't sit,lay in any position,stand up,prop up,or do anything to relieve it by usual methods one would do for a garden variety backache.I sleep on a heating pad and whimper to sleep.It fucking hurts like you would not believe..
It makes me angry and it sucks that the non-narcotic painkillers don't work on severe pain.And the drug companies waste time with viagra and baldness drugs pandering to rich vain old people,scared of being old or their insurance..
An example of how STUPID our FDA is, they'll forbid independent small beef companies to test their own herds for BSE, but ever hear of Tramodol? It is a drug I was given recently it didn't work,I wondered why,On Tramodol,I went to the ER, the pain was driving me up a wall.I sat there for five hours for nothing because I had no way home if I stayed...Well my spinal neurologist tells me it is useless for pain when taken ORALLY. But it is very effective in an injectable form at killing bad pain and it is non-addictive..
But get this: the fucking FDA does not approve of Tramadol in injection form over HERE. But over in Europe and pretty much everywhere else it is approved to get in an injection. It's like our fucked up phobic puritanical ass backwards government WANTS people in severe pain to kill themselves in anguish or become addicts just so macho cops or paranoid"homeland security fascists" or the DEA with nothing better to do can fine or punish them for seeking relief later when they are 'caught' possessing the drugs that are made into the devil itself..by STUPID PEOPLE who never have dealt with the magnitude of pain like neuropathy creates..
I hate that there are so few non -narcotic pain killers for severe pain available.Honestly,I am scared to death of becoming addicted. I hurt until I can't stand it,before I dare take a hydrocodone. Yet good pain management means you have to take the medicines before it's killing you,but I am afraid to do it.
I can't take percoset,allergic to it,thankfully.
But regardless degenerative disc disease fucking SUCKS and it hurts like you wouldn't believe. I got it from being hit by a car (a cab)going 45 mph in a 25 mph zone,I was slowly walking across the street holding my ex's hand .I had one foot on the curb and I was wrenched from his hand and I flew to the other side of the road.
Because I was naive about my rights,legally back than,and didn't even understand what "press charges" meant I didn't know what I should do or say. In the ER I was so drugged up when a cop asked me questions and I couldn't understand him or my own thoughts or words.I didn't know I should have gone to shock trauma,the general hospital didn't bother to x-ray my spine at all,they just reset my legs,sent me on my way in crutches I didn't know how to use.I'm a medical assistant patient I don't get treated like I matter,and MA patients do get shitty care,because we are the useless eater class.
And somehow I am supposed to NOT resent THIS shit? While rich people get five star care just because they are RICH or a Person of Interest? WTF.Fuck this class war bullshit.
Unbeknown to me or the ER my fucking neck was fractured!My spine was impacted!I didn't know how to defend myself,I was drugged up because I was in pain at the ER and because I didn't know or understand I never sought compensation. I was alone.The bastard cabbie was speeding and had his car lights off.Neither my ex or myself saw him coming.I had a huge neon pink 2 foot spiked Mohawk and GLITTERY Doc Martins on that day.
I was because of my financial and social status treated like I was some insignificant waste of money,(the way REPUBLICANS think)no one saw this injustice,not even ME at the time.I think the reason I went to the general hospital was to save a corporation's reputation(Jimmy's Cab co.).And my anger will come up every time I hurt.At the fucking cab driver,at the fucking ER the ambulance Co,myself the psych system,For the rest of my days. I have more pain to look forward to as my spine disintegrates..however. What a fucking wonderful life.
And because of my ignorance of the laws,(nobody bothered to explain it)the failure of having any decent advocate in the psych system (lazy ignorant residential staff) and my mom being in another state, I had no one to help me than,and because I had no one but my ex who was young and naive as I was at the time,I was so screwed.My reward? 15 years later I am in pain and scared to take the drugs that take the pain away.
I hurt.. and I am scared of becoming addicted,Scared of the DEA crazies coming to get me someday down the road or the spinal neurologist I go to who is one of the sweetest people...getting in trouble or being "investigated" because he wanted to HELP me. It makes my blood boil..And I know I am not the only one on this board with chronic pain.I wonder if they are scared of the DEA or addiction or being scapegoated too or worse forced to suffer because the climate could become so no doctor wants to RISK prescribing narcotic painkillers?
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I hate this world.And there is no way for me to get over it.I'll never get compensated for my injuries.(statute of limitations) It saves every corporate asshole,and abuser asshole).
I am so screwed .I am scared the hypocrite rich bully re thugs clinging to power will not step down, I am scared they may try to scapegoat liberal or politically left people in pain.You know bullies & re-thugs always pick targets who are the least able to fight back like the poor or sick. The hate I feel about all this shit is magnified to epic despising levels.I hate conservatism to it's rotten core.I DESPISE authoritarians,hypocrite rich criminal assholes. I hate them all.I hate their world.They make everything WORSE.
I would love to see the rich and corrupt lined up and laugh my ass off as I watch each hypocrite tyrant wealthy pampered thieving pig "conservative" dragged onto a platform by a bunch of fed up and exploited people, sick of their crap,laughing as the "conservatives" lose their heads by a guillotine blade and their wealth is redistributed,their families frantically fleeing the country in shame and impoverished..all the secrets let out to the light of day,the cancer cut out,and 'family values' bullshit ,the class/ culture war ended, destroyed forever, as the psychopathic ideologies of the right wing are finally debunked and tossed OUT of power and the believers in it are rooted out and never allowed to participate in ANY politics forever..laughed at and hated everywhere they go BECAUSE of what they believe in and who they ARE.
I'm tired of this fascist class war christian nazi drug war puritanical fanatic right wing bullshit.
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