No, mr. bush, it is YOU I am afraid of (yeah, another rant....)

[The Straight Story]

Three years ago this day is the last time I saw my mother alive. She was out of it. She came home a week before Christmas after being in the hospital for roughly 2 months. Christmas eve she went back into the hospital with kidney problems.

I went in to relieve dad for the night. I was running a bit late, I was supposed to go to a funeral for a friend I knew from work (her 19yr old son was killed by a drunk driver Christmas eve) but I just could not bring myself to go. I had already been to two funerals in nearly as many months. So I drove around a bit thinking.

Finally, I went in and mom was out of it. Dad pulled me out into the hallway and told me this was it, she only had a few days left. She seemed ok, just not all mentally there. Then mom yelled for dad and we went back in, she was trying to cut the 'baby' out of the pillow (she called my daughter the baby). Dad gave her a pretend knife, and she saved the day. And then she stopped.

She saw me then, tears in my eyes, and she snapped out of it all for a sec. She told my dad I should not be there, that I could not handle it, and to send me home. He did - so as not to upset her.

*I* agreed, along with my family, not to put her on life support.

And her death on Jan 31, 2004 still haunts me. What if?

And that brings me to you mr. bush.

YOUR actions have caused the death of thousands upon thousands. And yet you still sit there smirking. On the anniversary of your war, you beat your chest in defiance.

While I cry over one person, whom I might have saved had I not agreed to end life support.

Those people there - they don't even know who I am. They don't want to kill me. They want to live their little lives like I do.

But their bodies litter the landscape. And yet you smile and tell us how well the war is going.

Thousands of people have lost a loved one - and for what? To make me feel more safe?

As I sit here tonight crying over my loss, I can only imagine how many there are crying over theirs. And it did not have to be.

You wanted Saddam. You got him. And yet you are still there, still asking for (and getting) money to keep on killing - killing a people who instill no fear in me I might add.

No, mr. bush - I don't fear the people of Iraq.

I fear you - and your inability to FEEL.

I regret that I did not do more for one life, and yet you revel in what you have done to many many lives.

More of our people have died from your war than did on 9/11. And I don't feel any safer - because the real threat is home grown.

It is you and those who help you.

I feel my pain tonight - but I carry with it now the pain you have caused so many others in my name, and it makes me ashamed and terribly sad.

I miss you mom. And I hope you have a place in your arms in Heaven for those sent to their death by this administration.

They got their oil, and all we got and the Iraqi people got was death.

I fear for my family, but it ain't the Iraqi's I fear.

It is you mr. bush.

[ThatsMyBarack]

1. *cry*

:cry:

* is a FUCKING MURDERER! :mad:

[bobbolink]

2. You have been through so much.

My heart goes out to you.

:hug: :loveya: :hug:

[bobbolink]

3. *'s inability to cry or to feel.... it's just the extreme end of what our whole society is about.

I was just told today NOT to cry... when I have so much to cry about.

That from a "progressive".

We are so emotionally constipated as a society, and look what it gets us. Yet, so many of us do not see it in ourselves. We're all part of it.

While I'm so sad for all the grief you have in your life, I'm proud of you for being able to shed the tears that are needing to be shed.

That's the mark of a real man.

:pals: :loveya: :pals:

[bobbolink]

4. bumping this up for a Friday night..... good food for thought for ALL of us.

:kick:

:hug:

[kestrel91316]

5. There will come a day when Caligula learns what it is like to fear.

I wish him MANY sleepless nights.

[ninkasi]

6. What a painful thing that must have been

What else besides misery can we expect from a man who smirks and giggles when he talks about death, and destruction? I've never been afraid of those he labels as terrorists; the chances of my losing my life at their hands are remote.

With him in charge, though, I could lose my life, just as I've already lost a good deal of my freedom. Go back to the pig farm. What's the point of the "democracy" he claims to want to spread, if we citizens are left destitute, and condemned to death if we are not among the wealthy? What good is it if we can't exercise our Constitutional rights?

I join with you, Straight Story, it's Bush and the neocons I fear. I don't know which is worse, my fear or my loathing.

[kineneb]

7. I understand your pain

My husband is slowly dying: renal failure, and congestive heart failure. Today, he was to get a thorocentisis (sp?)- removal of liquid around the lungs. But after a blood test and x-ray, they sent him home, with a message to contact his main doctor next week.

He is 60.

I think this was his last Christmas.:cry:

[The Straight Story]

8. Damn

I have always known I had it worse than others, and yet - how is that comfort to someone? Sadly, such is the logic of the RW (hey, be happy - other people are suffering more than you....).

I am happy for what I have, sad for what I have lost and face, and somewhere in the middle I find I simply have come to 'exist'.

It is a damn sad day when I feel better about my situation because someone else's is worse - when in reality we should all be feeling the need to do our best for each other, no matter where we are.

Which is what I am feeling this day. We sail in the same boat called life, we just sometimes end up on different currents. Would that I could throw you a tow line and we could sail together.

[Rex]

9. I'm sorry.

:(

George Bush, you son of a bitch! People should spit on you when they see you. You should be shunned for the rest of your miserable life. Dogs and cats should try to piss on you whenever the chance arises. Birds should shit in your hair, while you still have some. You are a disgusting individual that never earned any respect from a single person you've met. Only scorn.

Disgraceful motherfucker, you are The Asshole. One and only. You need a special medal just for you, for being the biggest failure in American history.

[The Straight Story]

10. Well, we the people are still putting up with it

Myself included.

We have tried change at the polls, let's hope it really brings change.

If not - then we are totally screwed.

I just kick myself because I feel like I am not doing enough.

At least here I can let off some steam and know that I am not alone in what I feel.

And that counts for something for me. But not enough for others.

[Rex]

11. Stop kicking yourself.

:hug: We all feel that way toward Bush and yeah we have to put up with it. The great paradox of law. Still doesn't mean we have to like it. Together we are strong! This place really is awesome. One of my favorites.

[Karenina]

12. There are SO MANY EASY things to do

that don't seem to catch on. There was a call for paper plates to be sent to Pelosi. SO SIMPLE to write a message on a plate, affix sufficient postage, send it to Cindy to be SURE it was COUNTED and DELUGE the woman with MILLIONS of plates to be delivered to the Speaker. NOTHING. Wexler has his IMPEACH CHENEY campaign, it's JUST A FUCKING CLICK... 150,000 so far. WHY IS IT NOT 15 MILLION???
You KNOW your experiences are not unique, which is why your rants pack such a punch. My question is, WHERE IS EVERYBODY??? :shrug: