do you think that you experience things about your body negatively

[mopinko]

that other people would not notice at all?
iow- it's all in your head. ok. buhbye.

ya know i made the mistake of looking back over the year at how much bcbs has shelled out on my behalf, and how much of my time has been spent with appts, tests, and procedures.
if you count my youngest in the mix- i averaged something a little less than once a week. several were 2 day or all day events. just for me, bc shelled out $46K. kiddo- $44K. don't know about scripts, except that i had $2k in co-pays.
and ya know what? i still feel like shit, and so does the kiddo. she is grateful the tonsils are gone, and i am grateful that the teenie weenie polyp is gone from my colon. other than that, we both spent a lot of time and pain and bs to find out a bunch of nothing.

then they look at you like you are some sort of parasite.
argh.

[w8liftinglady]

1. my first neurologist treated me like that-handed me ativan and antidepressants

...now,on my third-come to find out...there really IS something wrong with me-yes,it cost 200K to get here.I will have neurosurgery soon.What if I had accepted what the first doc said?I'd be a benzodiazepine junkie drooling in a corner.Your instincts are usually correct.Don't let them intimidate you.

[mopinko]

2. i would love to drop my rheumie

but i think that rheumie #5 is gonna think you are a hypochondriac if you crawl in on your hands and knees. current one thinks job one is to keep me from becoming "a head case". he's ok about treating pain, but has no desire whatsoever to find out what the underlying problem is.
gonna go back to pcp in a couple weeks, and try to tie the whole mess together. she's ok.