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OK, look, this will be my last post on this, but I feel i need to clarify my drama-queen behavior:
I asked for the "consensual" voluntary tombstoning because of primarily one simple thing: despite having the discipline to wade through 140+ books in my grad program (90 of which I am tested on; 45 down, 45 yet to come) I seem to lack the discipline it takes to stay off of reading/posting at DU, and to buckle down to finishing the prep for my final written/oral exam; my last hurdle.
It's a tough one. It's coming late next month.
Part of this discipline problem has me spending time trying to snap photos to post in the photo group, time I HAVE to spend getting my scholarship in order.
I didn't handle this well; I wish I hadn't posted my previous OP, but I wanted to make it clear that my "tombstoning" (whenever the admins get around to it) was voluntary on my part, not because I'd committed some horrible act on the boards (except for some of my photos, which I am quite certain fall into the "acts of abomination" category in some eyes).
I wish I hadn't posted the OP but had rather simply let Mira handle it when I informed her, via PM, of my need to remove my photo from this month's contest. I determined (too late) that I shouldn't have entered; that shot had no chance of winning, but if some fluke of poor judgement had occurred out in the GD community, I would be stuck hosting a contest I already don't have time for.
I didn't want to have to explain the lack-of-discipline thing, just on general principle. However, the way I handled this thing made Mira feel awkward, added an unwelcome/unasked for element of melodrama to this group, and was just stupid.
To use a famous phrase from Conrad (or Apocalypse Now, if you prefer film) : my method was unsound (and pathetically ridiculous, though Conrad didn't say THAT, as far as I recall, but I digress...)
I hope you all will forgive me for this major injection of weirdness and melodrama; you are a great group of artists.
I have received some nice comments and PM's, and I just hope to clear this up.
I wish I had stuck with simply PMing Mira, and kept my public yap shut; I didn't, and I apologize for that.
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