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I have a question about the “shift” or consciousness change, or even consciousness changes in general because something is happening to my husband all of a sudden. It is like his compassion has suddenly increased tremendously. He was a good guy before but something has changed. Once instance is that a friend of mine has had a lot of problems and is finally doing a little better, is out of her bad relationship and in her own apartment but didn’t have much furniture. Mr. Red (I will call him because he is a Republican and I am “get the red out”, LOL) gets very concerned and goes out and gets her a bunch of used furniture (he’s a great wheeler-dealer) and calls me to ask her apartment number for delivery! I asked him what got him to do this and he said he “just knew it was the right thing to do”. And the other night he suddenly asked if he thought the apartment complex across the street would let him buy a cheap basketball goal for all the kids that live there. These are the same kids he was complaining about being “section 8” and running wild all over the place not too long ago!
He is a good man, I have never had any doubt, even when we were fighting over politics to the point that I wondered if our marriage could make it, I just considered him misguided. But this sudden desire to help people less fortunate is different. He was even telling me about a movie he liked about golfers and when he tried to tell me that the African American character in the movie didn’t have shoes and it was in the segregated south, he burst into tears. This was last week. Now I cry at the drop of a hat, and I have seen him get a Kleenex at a sad part during a movie, but this was still different. He could hardly tell me about the movie for sobbing.
My big fear-mongering side says “well, he’s been under the weather lately, he must be going to die”. My brain always goes there, I am so afraid that "God" will take love from me (maybe a left over from childhood). But my logical mind wonders if he isn’t being affected by this “shift” that is being discussed so much. He could also be coming out of the grief of loosing both his parents in one year last year. He didn’t become outwardly emotional during all that sad time.
I like the change, and he does seem to be finally getting over the nasty virus he had ;-)
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