...and Hi again!

[lildreamer316]

So yes, as some of you noticed; I was able to get back here on Sat. or so. It turns out, that I need to be thrown in a pit with "ye of little faith"; as usual.

The saga began when I tried to make arrangements for the ...ready for this...669.00 electric bill that we needed to pay to not be shut off that Monday morning. I was informed that because we had had a previous arrangement earlier in the year, we would not be allowed another one. So all of it had to be paid right then. I actually managed to scrape it all together, and raced to my bank (that opens at 7:30 am, bless them) to deposit and make payment. I called the company; but twice my debit card was declined. So the lady on the phone told me to make a payment by check over the phone; and that it would post from my bank account within 12 hours. I did so reluctantly; but with little other choice.

I got back home to find that they had already shut off the power; and after a few more back-and-forths; was told it would be turned on when the payment was verified..in other words; in 12 hours or so. So, we packed up the munchkin and off we went to a friend's house.

A few days later I returned; to find the power on. So I called the finance company that handles my car payment to find out what we needed to do to make that up.

The lady says. "Ma'am; your car payment went through just fine on Tuesday afternoon. No, I'm not showing any kind of delinquency."

Shawn and I are puzzled. So I check the bank.

Turns out, the lady from the power company was wrong. The check over the phone does not post for 48 hours, not 12. But they turn the power on anyway in anticipation of it clearing; since I had never bounced a check with them before. Of course; that isn't true now. Sigh. But the lady at the power company this time said to not pay the bill until I got a letter from them; sometime late this week.

Basically, it turns out my car payment (that could sink my new, good credit rating) was made, and the electric payment was..sorta not.

So, we were given a reprieve, of sorts. I just hope the money will come. I confess that I was worried that my anger about Shawn quitting his job was the cause of all this...LOA and everything. That's why I posted about it then; so that maybe I could mitigate what I was attracting. It seems I did not do such a good job of that.

I am very tired of being in this kind of situation. I don't like always being the 'poor me' drama queen. It's irritating to me; and I am sure it must be very irritating to others. I have never been afraid of hard work, so this just makes it even more galling that we keep finding ourselves in this place. I must once again apologize for burdening all of you with my woe is me bit. I am not trying to be a sympathy vampire.

There is a slight light at the end of the tunnel. The club chain that Shawn is currently working for is building a brand new club from the ground up, right here in Greensboro. LOL. So, I think we are meant to be involved. He has attempted to get jobs at 5 other clubs in the past 2 weeks; to be stymied at every turn; so I believe the Universe is trying to tell us that this is what is meant to be.(He even called over to San Francisco on the advice of another dj..but the money to get out there wasn't worth the pay). And the 'good' club he left has turned to drugs (managers and djs); girls fighting in the dressing room (this never happens at this club) and one of their managers came over to Shawn's current work and was throwing coins at the ladies performing onstage. Such a class act, there.

So I greatly appreciate all of your kind thoughts and support; and for once again putting up with my drama. As I have said before; I do not have many close relatives or friends here; so often as not you are my support system. Thank you so much and we love all of you.

[MorningGlow]

1. Oh, LD, so glad to "see" you here again!

So sorry you had to go through that, but you did just great, considering the circumstances. And realizing how the LOA worked is a great lesson, even if it's a tough one. So your hubby quit his job, which in turn made you worry about not being able to pay bills, and thus it turned out you weren't able to pay some bills--do I have that right?

You're also doing great at seeing the big picture (how the club turned bad after your hubby got out and your optimism at the upcoming club.

You can do this, LD. You have the power! Hee. And of COURSE you always have us--no drama queen worries here. We've all come to the ASAH forum with major troubles in our turn, and there's always enough love (and no judgment) to go around!

Be well, LD. Visualizing plenty and prosperity raining down on you and filling your arms! :hug: :hug: :hug:

[Celebration]

2. you are back!!

It is good to see you here. I am listening and I do not feel like you are a so-called drama queen. I am listening, and although I have no specific advice, it sounds like you are dealing with a difficult situation in the appropriate manner. Sending you light and love, and I hope that things turn around for you guys quickly.

[I Have A Dream]

3. Hi, lildreamer! I'm glad that you're back!

I don't see you as a drama queen; I'd be the same way if I were in your shoes. :hug:

I'll be keeping your family in my prayers.

[rosesaylavee]

4. Welcome back!

Sorry to hear about your money issues. Believe me, you are not alone. Am more than a bit tired of that struggle myself and being one step ahead is very stressful. The day you described is my great fear. I am glad you are doing better and have hope for a solution.

:hug:

[stellanoir]

5. Bless you and your's hon.

Wishing you all the best.

You'll make it through.

:loveya:

[Callie McAllie]

6. welcome back

hope the money comes through soon!

[BlueIris]

7. Glad to hear you've got it sorted out. nt

[rumpel]

8. Drama queen you certainly are not.

I absolutely appreciate your comment; "I am very tired of being in this kind of situation."
I have been in a very intense setback for the past 2 months myself -
It takes an awful lot of energy to even maintain one's equilibrium. Keeping the feelings in balance, moment to moment, doing the best within the circumstances is all we can do. Alternating feelings include, fear, panic, frustration, helplessness, nervousness - while it is easier said than done, do not let those feelings overwhelm you. With your hubby, agree on how you envision your ideal state of life will look like - then let go - surrender it to universe. Know that you are here to live in joy and love. Know you are protected. Be in the Now.

These free guided meditations may help...
http://www.carriehart.com/harttracks.htm


:grouphug:

[lildreamer316]

9. Thank you, rumpel.

I am really learning that lesson about the NOW. It has come home to me that I should not worry about how we are going to pay for something even as close as tommorrow. Just get through, and try to enjoy, today. I am being made very aware of that!

I will check out the meditations. Thank you for caring! :hug: