another vision

[undergroundpanther]

Yesterday I was dog tired.I wasn't depressed, just really tired,I basically slept all day yesterday straight into the next day,today.I was up maybe 3 hours during it all.I never do this marathon sleeping ,unless I am sick or recovering from surgery.It was strange.

This morning I got up and I was so tired.I am still pretty damn tired.I got really depressed today too.Talked to my counselor. didn't help much..Anyway during my twilighty sleep, I had 3 dreams visions or whatever.


It felt as if it was being"downloaded" into my mind.Weird sensation if you've ever had it.


First I saw a compass it just aimlessly spun around shimmering,direction less it could not find north. I saw the sun it looked bluish with a huge halo at about 3 o'clock in the sky.And there was strange glowing clouds at sunset.They glowed long after the sun went down kinda bluish sometimes greenish. The sky was reddish color it was glowing but it was unnatural it was night time and it was not from the town lights. Than the dream switched to daytime. I presume it was a few days later. I saw strange cloud formations and colors out the window.It was beautiful and disturbing at the same time.There was a scent in the air outside similar to vanilla mint.But decidedly artificial like it was masking another smell. I walked inside.My roommate had the TV on with reports of a hurricane made of snow.I saw it in a satellite image on TV. It was in January or February.It looked like a regular hurricane with an eye and all but it was made of bitter cold fast winds and blinding snow.It was a tropical storm in every sense except the time and temperature of it was all wrong.

On TV they were talking about never seeing such a storm before in history .Saying that is was a meteorological impossibility. And it began to track up the coast line in a weird pattern that went backward than forward like it had faulty steering, but it took the general path hurricanes take up wards from the tropics.It would be a day or so before it got to my state..

I saw myself and my roommate,we were in the house preparing, the weather channel was on in the background saying the temperatures around this storm were sub zero like 10 below around the eye even colder,it was a 4.. and we discovered we had no heating oil left, it was bitter cold already the cloud bands were encroaching in the sky ,it was past the time I could call the oil company besides I had no money to pay them. I thought the strength of the storm should drop upon landfall,but it didn't.It got worse as the northern cold air from Canada fed it.As the storm arrived in the evening we climbed into my bed because my bed is bigger and the cats were there too,we did this to stay warm, we were under every blanket,throw and quilt we had in the house,even a few beach towels and our electric heaters were going full blast and still we shivered. It was bad but do-able.The wind howled and rattled the house the snow smacked against it. I had my light on as we were both kinda creeped out.The wind picked up.Suddenly it went dark as the power went out on our street.A transformer made a big blue flash we both saw it from my window through a wall of snowflakes blowing sideways and it startled the cats too.. The silence after that was eerie.Just wind and the sound of snow and ice hitting the house and our breath & cat purring,The cats were huddled between us under the covers.Vinnie sneezed on me I went..Oh Vinny, ugh, eeew cat snot,wiping my arm off on a towel and my roommate laughed I said ok you think it's funny to be bathed in cat snot, you lick it off than..and we laughed.

Some time after that,I got up to pee and it was terrible cold,and I noticed a tiny portion of the curtain was not covering the window,it appeared the front window was half buried in snow.I couldn't believe it. So after I got off the pot,I walked in the living room and moved the curtain aside more and sure enough my yard looked like a desert,the tips of bushes and half of the trees were visible, the mailbox was buried,it was very early morning and everything had that pre-dawn purple color.Icicles bigger than I have ever seen before,thicker than my waist hung off my eaves like columns and hung off the trees.And the snow was coming down in sheets.
So silent..

It was surreal.

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The next vision was at the mall.

I was there getting some stuff. I saw people sorta military looking (dressed to intimidate) posted at the entrances holding guns openly.I thought that was strange.They just stood there and everyone acted as if this was normal. I went to the stores to get the stuff on my list,As I walked through the mall I saw more of these military looking people walking around.Some were eating at the food court.I felt unnerved as hell .But I persevered in getting my stuff,than as I paid for my items and walked out, some military guy with a gun grabbed my shoulder as I walked out of the store bag and receipt in hand.

I said what the fuck are you doing?? what do you want?? I paid for this stuff,see??!! Leave me alone!!.He pulled his pistol out and put it into my back and barked at me to shut up and
walk .So I walked,I asked if this was a stick up or not? I got no answer.There was a mobile paddy wagon parked in the sears area where they ship out big items and load them into your car.. There were several people in the black van already.They were young,non- white,transgender,gay, poor or punk/Goth/freak looking.Anyone not white,strictly male or female, and conservative in expensive normal clothes seemed suspects to these cops.

Theothers in the van were cuffed with zip strips to a bars mounted on the inside walls of the van.They were kneeling on the floor of the van arms cuffed overhead. I got cuffed to the bar too and was forced on my knees and these fucking military cop people stole the stuff I just bought.They were really bullying us too. I got pissed off and I came out with some snarky replies and they cracked my head with a flashlight and yelled that I don't deserve any goddamn rights. They slammed the doors shut..I mocked them behind their backs it made a few in the van laugh.

I immediately began trying to free my arms as soon as they shut the doors.The others were apathetic almost resigned and knelt there not trying to free themselves.I found a sharp place on the pole where it was welded to the wall and rubbed the zip strip on it until it broke.The van was moving. They hadn't bothered to search me yet and I still had my pocket knife so,I cut everyone loose.Than I said something about how to do dropping and rolling out of moving vehicles ,than I opened the doors and I jumped out hit the road and rolled.And when I hit the ditch on the side I got up and ran like hell over the grass embankment into the trees.
I didn't look back to see if others got out or if the guys with guns were after me, I just ran.


In the woods I climbed up a big pine tree,there I looked back twords the road I ran away from wondering if all of them got out safely or not.I was taking ragged breaths.Below I saw Checkpoints,and those black vans were all over 95.

Helicopters flew overhead.I ducked against the pine trunk to hide in the boughs and not be seen by the searchlights.All I could think was oh,shit oh,shit..Is it like this everywhere now? I was scared to climb down. It was raining. It would be dark soon. I heard reports of bad weather coming from distant car radios. It was cold, I was wet.I had to get home.Somehow. I felt terrible. I wondered how to get away, where I was at,I tried to figure out the best route away from the mess.I had a cap I put that on and tucked my mowhawk under it.Zipped my coat up to hide my crucifucks shirt and I watched and waited.

I woke up.

Third vision.
I was much older in this dream,looked like I was in my 50's.
Someone broke into my house.They didn't take the TV or my old crappy computer or my silver Sekhmet necklace.. They took all the bottled water,candles,blankets and food,even the cat food.I just cried. I didn't know how I would get more food,water or warm blankets, couldn't afford to buy new ones.I had no money. everything was shut off no water,TV, heat or electric. It was still so very cold.I really wished my mom was there and not 500 miles away. It was the afternoon,I just broke down. Alone in the house.As the night came and I saw my feet and hands were becoming frost bit,and there was nothing I could do about it,I had every sock and slipper I had on me.I felt like I might not make it through the night,I wasn't sure the cats were going to make it either,they were definitely in hypothermia,they were so cold.Not moving.So I took my entire bottle of Klonopin,and painkillers with some tea in the bottom of my thermos leftover from two days before.I lay down with the cats and I waited,after awhile I stopped shivering I know logically it was bitter cold but for some reason it had stopped feeling cold. My cats were laying close to me. I noticed there was no more little puffs of breath coming from them anymore.I was too cold and groggy to try to see if they were dead or not.A tear rolled out and froze on my face.I just waited in the dark all alone. Everything seemed to slow down,my breath hardly was there, and I watched it grow darker, my eyes seemed frozen in position. I waited.

I woke up.

Maybe my dreams were fear dreams, maybe not.I don't know.But the intensity of them was disturbing.

[Sanity Claws]

1. That sounds terrible

I hope it was just a bad dream, not a vision of things to come.
Here's wishing you better dreams tonight.

[FirstLight]

2. Wow....I know what it's like to have these visions

it can rattle you for days afterwards, and you find yo0urself looking at the worlds differrently, like you are half expecting it to be true.
Sweet Underground Panther, I encourage you to do searches and find channelings and elders's words that can help allay your fears. I know I have heard and read in several places that we are shining SO brightly, that the darkness is trying last ditch efforts to get us to alow that kind of fear thoughtform into our reality. and they can access us more easliy as we sleep. And the sleeping is, I think, a by product of the shift. We have to lay down and get "reprogrammed" and reset by the vibrations at work.

My teacher reminds me to say "I accept healing and protection and information from ONLY those beings of 100% Light who hold for the highest good of myself, the planet and for all mankind"

I try to remeber to protect the house and all of us at night as we go to sleep, and also remember to do this while driving, etc...anywhere you could go into trance, you are succeptable to the shadow.
Because they KNOW they are losing the grip, that we have already reached critical mass in Light, they are geting more bold and aggressive. Keep adding Love to the Fear, and pray often that it won't come to any of that scary stuff.
I myself have been asking to be shown how this can be a GENTLE transiton, how can it look "Better" because I too tend to think in terms of chaos and destruction and more..
:hugs:
Hope your day goes easier today!

[undergroundpanther]

3. I need to say this

>it can rattle you for days afterwords, and you find yo0urself >looking at the worlds differrently, like you are half expecting >it to be true.

On one plane it might be true ,on another not be, on another a partial truth.Sure it rattles but I am not scared of being rattled.

>Sweet Underground Panther, I encourage you to do searches and >find channelings and elders's words that can help allay your >fears.

I don't really look to elders to tell me what I want to hear.I just back burner it,and move on.I trust that I will know when it is to act or not.I trust my spirit, the wisdom desired for more than any elders.As for channeling it is not always good the things people channel.It may have surface appeal but dig in think and you might find it is sweet tasting poison.A course in miracles is an example of sweet tasting poison that looks like light but is very,very evil.

>I know I have heard and read in several places that we are >shining SO brightly, that the darkness is trying last ditch >efforts to get us to alow that kind of fear thought form into our >reality.

That "fear thought form" it's here already, it has been here a long long time,and it controls this reality.It's in my system of labels called an archon.It has made a cage or "grid" and matter to keep us prisoners here for as long as it can dupe us into staying here because the only way it can feel alive is by robbing us of our strength and life powers. It's a fucking predatory/parasite upon spirit.

> We have to lay down and get "reprogrammed" and reset by the >vibrations at work.

Yes I know about the attempts at reprogramming,dreams and astral travelers beware!!.. and I reject all of it when it comes to saying it is true or not.I let it be.I back burner it.I will not tolerate anything trying to" reprogram "me.A spiritual download sensation it prompts two things to trace where that dump came from back engineer it,and to seal any openings in my aura and inform my guardians to stay alert. No way ,no how do I just think if some being is shiny light I will let it ANYWHERE into my spirit.It has to demonstrate it's true nature first.I know how,nice pretty dreams or horrid nightmares are basically bullshit the archon uses to trap sparks.Yet sometimes visions speak of other things from other sources of things going on in other dimensions or times,and sometimes parts of other dimensions overlap or filter down or get through and become things that can occur in materiality in different ways.It's always garbled.

Why? Because the fucking archon does not want us to know jack shit about what we are,our sources or the way this reality operates and the fact that we are in prison and our life is keeping the jailer and abuser of our spirits alive.

>My teacher reminds me to say "I accept healing and protection and >information from ONLY those beings of 100% Light who hold for the >highest good of myself, the planet and for all mankind"

I don't ask for that,because a being that is 100 percent light sometimes is NOT GOOD. A dark being can be VERY Good. This is because there is no "light" or "dark" it is an illusion used to keep you on a false focus.There is will, yours,the others here or elsewhere or the archon's will and there is wisdom desired for,and acting upon it..and that can take any shape it is up to YOU to discern what you do or don't do.

Anyone saying it's ok let such and such being tinker with your spirit because it's light appearing is blinding you to what is.You might not be healing as much as you are being led to believe.

>I try to remeber to protect the house and all of us at night as >we go to sleep, and also remember to do this while driving, >etc...anywhere you could go into trance, you are succeptable to >the shadow.

I have protection..I ain't afraid of shadows.Some shadows are great wise allies of mine.I fight archon, the cancer mind,the delusions,the controllers the abusers.They are the enemies and jailers of spirit.And some archons look beautiful too that does not mean they are as good as they appear..There are panther spirits around me always, sometimes in the hundreds.There are wolves too,and multi dimensional beings I cannot begin to describe but they are there.

A huge purple dragon sleeps in my yard.I have legions of angels watching out too .They became my allies(they act like servants and I am beginning to think that is how they are).This is because I kicked metatrons ass for hampering a group whom I was journeying with who were seeking of spiritual wisdom.Metatron tried to bend the seeking lights they were sending to his will. Blinding and misdirecting them.I told him to stop it.He sent angels to attack I fought them until I got up to his throne,than I cut him to ribbons with lightening by taking off all my forms.I saw the biggest archon I have ever seen mirroring him behind his"throne".But I could not go after that one as the callback called me back.As I walked back to where the group was the angels put there foreheads down on the ground before me I told them to stop doing that,and they followed me out of metatron's chamber.As I returned with the group.Some of the people in the group saw me fighting metatron,shifting and discarding forms and toss angels around,and they saw them laying down as I walked back.They reported this to the group.I had said nothing.It was weird they saw all of this.That whole day was interesting.

As for my house it has layers and layers of defenses because it is a fucking fortress for spirit in the Archon's reality.
I know it is under siege but it is this way because of the war of essences.

I don't drive but as I walk I can walk with my eyes closed and headphones on and not trip,or get lost or anything.why? because I can sense what is going on in the environment well before my body gets to it and with 50 or more panthers flanking me on all sides,and hawks/blackbirds or falcons following me in real life,nothing comes near to give me bullshit usually.If it does and it does not heed my warning to stop fucking around. I'll destroy it with lightening.This reality is not kind to spiritual beings it cannot dupe or control. It is a war of two essences and I do not suffer the archon or its minions..

>Because they KNOW they are losing the grip, that we have already >reached critical mass in Light, they are geting more bold and >aggressive.

What you said about it knowing it is losing grip and being more aggressive ..that is true. The astral layers are collapsing into materiality that is why there are so many ghost/spirit sightings "new animals discovered and all.This war is drawing to an end, and it is why all these beings over the past 5 years have arranged things and protected this haven and me even those without spiritual eyes sense it and observe something .

I have seen a car losing control when I was out with a friend on 95, and this car I was sure was gonna hit us.I sawit being moved out of our path with what seemed invisible hands,the motion it made by all logic was impossible.The panthers moved it.This war is real.Light VS dark is bullshit, it is a war of one essence, the one you are of, VS,another essence one I label Archons.We are the aliens to this reality.

>Keep adding Love to the Fear, and pray often that it won't come >to any of that scary stuff.

Scary stuff comes because this matter state is terminally dying It is a war.Wars are not fun or happy or about love.I'm not afraid when I have these visions,I am more asking for feedback/correlations to work with if any. If the scary stuff comes it comes at least what I remember from a vision might be useful at some point,or it might not.That is why I back burner it.
Sending love to archons who do not recognize love as love is well being very presumptuous assuming all beings are like you.They are not.. To some beings love feeds them and enables them to drain you dry.Be careful what you give love to.

>I myself have been asking to be shown how this can be a GENTLE >transiton, how can it look "Better" because I too tend to think >in terms of chaos and destruction and more..

Chaos need not be destructive, it can be quite good at times.So can destruction..Dark need not be evil.It takes discernment to know what is what and you cannot get that knowledge through elders opinions.The only way you get wisdom is through taking risk, finding discovery and the wisdom gained by experiences both good and nasty. It important to risk going beyond light or dark scenarios if you want to see the truth beyond it all.To see your OWN original sources.Than you are able to KNOW.

Ever hear of Chaorder? Chaorder is useful concept to know for anyone seeking more wisdom and discernment beyond light/dark stuff.

http://chaorder.cgdesigns.net/whatis/whatis.htm
Wanna go deeper?
http://www.crossroads.wild.net.au/order.htm

Feel free to PM me.
Purrs, Sekhemaatsophia