Any idea why everything is going to h*ll?

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

This has been one of the worst weeks I have ever experienced in my life. I have had people literally swarming me at work, complaining about bugs, and my boss and co-workers are also adding to the mix, demanding that I do things immediately when I'm in the middle of doing other matters, including an audit of the company. Then today my husband became enraged over his inability to work, and ranted, raved, and screamed at me all the way to work--and nearly wrecked the car in the process by driving at a furious pace until I begged him to stop. To top it all off, I've had an acute gastro-intestinal disorder that has made life interesting, to say the least. I've tried my best to understand the motivations behind the behavior (my health problem I know is due solely to the huge amount of stress I'm under), and tried to get hold of my own reactions to it all.

Any idea of why this is happening--and, perhaps more importantly, when will things calm down?

[MorningGlow]

1. Oh dear, Ayesha

That does sound like a terrible week! I'm so sorry you're going through all that--hope it ends soon! :hug:

I'm afraid I don't know what's causing it, though. I haven't had any major issues in my life, but I have felt blocked, work-wise--I'm just not feeling really creative at the moment, but my deadlines wait for no writer's block, so I'm getting a little stressed and impatient with myself. But that's nothing compared to the chaos you've got going.

Looking forward to an interpretation of what's up, definitely. In the meantime, hang in there! :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

6. I needed those hugs

Thanks a bunch! Hope your creative juices start flowing again!

[I Have A Dream]

2. Maybe you have something going on in your own chart...

astrologically. (e.g., Saturn, Mars or something like that is hitting something else.)

I think that I have your chart at home, so I can take a quick look when I get home tonight. However, I'm totally a novice at astrology, so I'd just be looking for really obvious things. Maybe someone who really knows what they're doing will be able to tell you more.

I hope that things get better for you soon. :hug::hug:

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

5. Thanks for your good wishes

I always figure because of the Venus-Mars-Jupiter being together things can get out of whack.

[stellanoir]

3. Oh dear

Your Progressed Moon just squared your Natal Pluto (passing) and will square your Natal Sun (easier) in slightly less than two months.

The good news is that within the next several months after that, your Progressed Sun will conjunct your Natal Moon which is a real rebirth aspect but it may currently feel like a "darkest hour before the dawn" sort of time.

The other good news is that your Progressed Moon will conjunct your Progressed Venus in about three months. This is a restoration of hopefulness and personal happiness.

That's the Reader's Digest take on it.

I'll take a deeper look at it and your DH's chart ASAP.

BREATHE !!!

:grouphug:

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

4. Breathing

Thanks for the RD version--at least I have some idea of what is going on now. THANKS!

[I Have A Dream]

7. Oooo... the big guns have arrived. No need for me to look now.

Thanks so much, stella! (You're always such a sweetheart.)

[stellanoir]

8. ". . .big guns. . ."

LOL

I'm such a pacifist I'd probably grab the wrong end.

:hug:

That was effortless and there is far more to say.

Just hoping I get to it.

The gardens are calling loudly.

[I Have A Dream]

20. OK, how about "The Big Kahuna"?

:D

[rosesaylavee]

9. ...

So sorry it's so very difficult at this time. It may be too that there is so much uncertainty in our news, our environment right now. People I know just allude to it but no one is talking about. Lots of decisions made this year will effect how our lives will be going forward. Don't discount the world problem 'noise' we are all trying to ignore... that is causing a lot of collective stress I think. Not having had real leadership for 8 years and know that it may or may not end soon depending on events outside your control = stress.

But we can still :hug: and support each other here.

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

10. Thank you!

I do think the underlying unease abroad in the country is a part of it. And I do come here for support--because I know I will get it!

[cliss]

11. So sorry, Ayes.

I'm keeping my fingers cross that things will settle down for you.

============
What's happening?

It does seem that our society is falling apart. People seem to be on the edge. I see it in traffic, just people in general seem to be stressed to the max right now.
In our economy, we're getting hit from every direction it seems right now. Gas prices through the roof, food prices going up with no end in sight. People are getting hit from every direction. I'm seeing more people who are obviously homeless, I see cars being dragged out by tow trucks in the middle of the night.

In terms of the spiritual aspect, what is happening?
If you look at what is getting hit, it's everything that has to do with our possessions. Everything that we own has suddenly become too expensive. The things that we valued are being taken away from us.

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

12. what you say is very true

and I daresay that it is a lesson about what is real and what is not that we must all learn.

[eilen]

15. in places you think you are safe

for example, I had to go to my Dr's. office for a shot. When I went to the window, the clerk told me that we had a balance due for $150! I said I thought this was covered... She told me it was from my son's physical (he was due, it had been over a year). The ins. co. paid for the vaccination but refused to pay for the physical! I paid her (wasn't expecting to) and that was a hit, now I think I may have to delay grocery shopping until next Monday. Luckily we do have some frozen chicken and plenty of rice and beans. I will still have to pick up milk, lunchmeat for my husband, bread and milk. When I grocery shop now, I try to pick up a little extra to freeze just in case of stuff like this.

Also, just to get our cars inspected.... We paid over $1000 in repairs in the last month. There is another $700 worth waiting to be done but it was not essential for the inspection so we skipped it this time. My clients also are not communicating with me regarding their custom orders so I think they are getting squeezed too. I am spending time researching and practicing to see how I can create the types of things usually order to see if I can get them done faster so it won't cost them as much and reviewing the materials. I've started using cable ties instead of the steel for reinforcement on the bodices (costumes for renfair). My hourly labor prices are already half as much than the average so I will not lower them any more.

[ricochetastroman]

13. Send me your chart info

I'll take a look, including your birth time.
Goodluck
hang in

[midnight]

14. There is something going on. I was in a doctors office

waiting for an opp. and a mother and grown son were getting into over family issues. It was unexpected, but they covered a gambit of issues. Bush stealing money for his oil war, and people ripping them off. And on and on it went.

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

16. One small update

I guess I had pretty much come to my limit, because last night in my dream, my spirit guide came and took my hand and we walked. Just holding hands and walking. But the love and understanding that was transmitted through that contact reminded me that Love is, indeed, endless, and that we are all cherished.

[Delphinus]

17. What a gift!

Ayesha, I'm so happy that you have received this. Thank you for coming back and sharing such a beautiful thing. O8) It gives me hope!

[cliss]

18. I'm glad to hear that.

I was trying to gather my thoughts yesterday, when my Internet connection got cut off. I was only 1/2 done with my post, but that's Ok because I ended up thinking about your post for the rest of the afternoon.

It seems that our way of life is changing. There's no going back to the Old Ways; this appears to be permanent.
Even though a lot of people seem to have trouble accepting what's happening.
Several of my friends have told me "no, our economy is not in trouble" and "no the rest estate market is going to rebound just you watch it's coming and prices will be higher than ever before".

The changes seem to be happening slowly enough that we should be able to adjust and make appropriate changes. Meaning = a less extravagant economy; we're going to have to get back to basics and do without, as many countries already do this.

This is a time to start focusing on spiritual values. I think within a year or two, we're going to start seeing a new focus; more humble, less belligerent.

[glowing]

19. And you know there is nothing wrong with this.. most people I know

just want more time with their families, food on the table and in the fridge, bill paid, a comfortable home.. Of course, I'm in a neighborhood that sports 2 to 3 bedroom small homes..not that the price tag is all that small for me, but its not as bad as trying to keep up a McMansion.

[ayeshahaqqiqa]

21. I am seeing people look within more

and those who have long been on a spiritual path are coming together to work in small groups. Despite all the changes, I know, within the core of my being, that I am safe, as we all are--and today took time to be still and to marvel at all that is going on.