Hi all! Well, after many fits and starts and scheduling challenges, I had my first tarot reading in about two and a half years today. I had done a magazine article about a local New Age shop and had visited with the owner on several occasions after that, so I asked her who her best psychic was and made an appointment with her. WOW was she good. I mean REALLY great! Very kind, great energy, and extremely accurate.
I asked her to let me know what was going on in the coming year, as it feels very...active to me. And I told her she could skip the "this is your past" part (the kind of thing psychics use to impress you and show that they really can read--I don't need convincing), and she didn't mind one bit. I also told her to "give it to me straight" even if any predictions might be unpleasant. I hate it when anyone tries to hide something ugly from me--I'd rather get the unvarnished truth so I can figure out how best to deal with it.
A nice touch--she shuffled the deck, but didn't just ask me to cut; instead, she asked me to select each card for the Celtic cross spread but not turn it over--just pull it out of the fan of cards and slide it over to her without turning it over or turning it around.
The results were pretty much what I expected overall. I mean, I already knew pretty much everything on some other level of consciousness--there were no "surprises". At present I'm not happy or fulfilled, but I have chosen happiness and fulfillment for the future. Overall, in 2010, I have to start getting back to me. I have given up a lot in the past 10 years or so (willingly)--friends, coven, magic, singing, guitar, theater, and going out of any sort (seeing a play or movie, going to a club or bar, going out with friends--ANYthing)--and I have to start getting that back, bit by bit. I have to reach out and find people of like mind in my area, and bit by bit I'll start forming my own "tribe" again. I won't be at peace this year, but everything I do to get myself back will get me closer to inner peace and happiness in the future.
The good news is that MG Jr. is a happy child--and she recognized him as a sensitive/crystal. It's important to focus on him this month. And although he's sensitive, he also is able to adapt, so any changes that come will be all right with him as long as he's got me. Also good--I must definitely finish the novel I started writing in November. She didn't say it would definitely be published, but it's still necessary for me to finish it, because it's part of my personal fulfillment (it's "what I do"), and it will open other avenues for me. I asked if I should see a therapist as I was considering, and she said no. I'm fine, I have a good head on my shoulders, I don't need "fixing" of any sort, and I would benefit more from having a circle of friends to bounce things off of and get perspective. I should have told her about ASAH! :D
The "bad" news is it isn't looking too good for my marriage. Not tossing it out or anything yet, but as I work on me, I have to realize that I can't pull Mr. MG along into my new reality/personal shift (if you will), so he's either coming voluntarily or he's not coming at all. It's going to be up to him. Right now he's stressed, unhappy, and doesn't like much of anything--very negative. But MG Jr. and I are moving forward into a positive-outlook-type future. Will Mr. MG come along? Don't know. (BTW, my former elder said this exact same thing the last time I had a reading back in July of '07.)
Oh wait--I admit there was one surprise--I thought we only have one ghost in the house, but apparently we have another entity of some sort that's hanging out in Mr. MG's office. It's not a good one by any means, and I need to smudge it out of there. It has a bad influence on Mr. MG, of a stifling sort. It drains his energy and puts him in a bad mood, but it also draws him into the room and likes it when it makes him lurk there with him. I have long called the place his "troll cave", and apparently I was hitting on a truth there. If I banish the critter, there's a better chance that Mr. MG won't be so crabby and negative.
Also, the vortex we have running through a corner of our house is not completely capped. I have a huge block of black and white granite over the thing, but a bit is escaping. If anybody can recommend something else I can use to keep this thing from gushing, please let me know!
Finally, she and I had a long talk about the transformative dream I had last year around this time--the one where Brigid appeared. (For reference, it was this one:
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_topic&forum=245&topic_id=86010) She got a sense of what was going on even before I picked a card! She said that Brigid is indeed important in my life, and the dream showed that she was part of me--a separate part, but part nonetheless. I am not Brigid, but she is in me.
She said I should get some sort of representation of Brigid and said Brigid wants to be in my bedroom. The funny thing is--and I didn't think of this till after I got home--for the past few weeks I've been obsessed with repainting the bedroom. Yes, after all the renovations that have gone on in the rest of the house, suddenly I looked at the master bedroom, which I hadn't paid much attention to since painting it a happy yellow several years ago, and went "Yuck." Suddenly I didn't like it anymore. The colors that were demanding to be put in place were green, silver grey, and dusty lavender. Apparently Brigid was already making her preferences known before I went for my reading! So I shall continue with my renovation plans, and I bought a brass Brigid cross on eBay tonight to hang on the wall, and I'm also eyeballing a pillar statue that has her three representations circling it.
She also said that the dream opened a door. I told her how my precog dreams started after that, and she said, "Oh, this is just the beginning." This oughta be good!
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So that's pretty much everything I've got in my notes. Overall, a very positive experience, with a generally uplifting message--that the ickies and stagnation will pass soon enough, and even if I'm not at that point yet, the wheels are already set in motion. Interesting! If anybody else picks up information from this, please let me know--I'm all about getting as much info as I can! :hi: