A couple of questions about abilities and their 'limits'

[lildreamer316]

..or, sorta 'abilities'..well, you'll see what I mean.

This has been triggered by a couple of different threads here.

First, when ever I wanted to be left alone (in a room, in a house, whatever) I would visualize a big red X over the doorway/entrance to the driveway/etc.

This ALWAYS, always worked until about two-three years ago someone made it through (a bill collector, I do believe). So I've been wary of using it since. Opinions on what I did wrong or how I am approaching it now? Should I continue to work with this and believe in it, or will it not work for me now that it's been 'broken' in my mindset that one time? Sorry if that sound crazy.

Second: I used to have semi-precognitive dreams/deja-vu moments all.the.time. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately!), it was always mundane stuff..conversations, the exact sequence of events,etc. I would have a moment 'outside of time' ; where my brain would inform me that all of this had happened before. I always assumed it was in a dream, but who knows.

This 'ability' completely stopped after the death of my first fiance in 2001. I assume it was the shock of NOT seeing it coming. I'm a bit disappointed to have lost this part of myself. I believe it *may* have happened, oh, once since then. Any ideas on what I should do about it? Am I just to traumatized?

I may have asked this here before - apologies if so; I don't remember for sure. Thanks for taking the time to read.

[Callie McAllie]

1. So sorry about the death of your first fiance

Some things perhaps we are not meant to see coming. I have no real advice to offer you, other than not to overthink things.

In a recent Karen Bishop thread, I believe she said that we should all soon be seeing/feeling a gradual increase in our spiritual "abilities." Astonishingly, I am seeing that for myself, and in my son. The frequency with which I think a thing or say a thing only to have it come to pass moments later is genuinely increasing, and I've seen my son do it as well. I'm not consciously doing anything, except possibly being more aware of these moments when they happen.

As you said, it's usually mundane stuff - a song on the radio, something someone's about to say. Although just yesterday, as my 84-year-old mother was getting ready to fly back to her home, I suggested she needed to call the cab driver who was scheduled to pick her up at her home airport for the hour-long drive to her house, to confirm. I had a bad feeling she would be left at the airport, waiting without a ride. Stubborn as always, she refused to call, confident her arrangements had been made. But sure enough, she did have to wait at her airport, not because the driver forgot her, but because his car broke down en route to pick her up. He had to go back to get another car and she waited nearly 3 hours altogether before getting her ride home. In the end, we were both right; calling to confirm would not have averted the problem.

I suggest you just stay open to your poss-"abilities" and let them come to you. And go ahead and practice the red X on the door. Quite a nice idea. I believe I will try that myself.

Good luck!

[rumpel]

2. In the end, we were both right; calling to confirm would not have averted the problem.

That is a very interesting insight into the many elements of everyone's energies being involved in our every day co-creation.

[lildreamer316]

4. This:

"..I am seeing that for myself, and in my son. The frequency with which I think a thing or say a thing only to have it come to pass moments later is genuinely increasing, and I've seen my son do it as well. I'm not consciously doing anything, except possibly being more aware of these moments when they happen."

..is happening to me on a regular basis, as also with my husband. It started when we got together and hasn't let up since! So maybe I am taking some things for granted, yes? LOL!

Thanks for the input and condolances (on the fiance)...it was a seminal moment for me in that I did not really mourn as such. People thought I was crazy because I was not hysterical, just suprised at the timing. He had always said he was going to die young. I can see now that he was with me for a few lessons (both of us) and also that he did the most loving thing possible for me: he let me go. He forced me to see some things that only a shock like that could have made clear. I do tear up at that thought; because he gave me such a gift! No one will ever know how much of a gift! But I do miss him.

I am going to relax, and meditate on this. Hopefully some things will become clear.

[rumpel]

3. Just a feeling

that perhaps you are sabotaging yourself as you indicated yourself. I believe that the connection to the cosmos has to be unobstructed (clouded by the self = mind & emotion)
Forgiving oneself is more difficult than said, and as Callie said in her post you probably could not have prevented it, even if you knew.

And as for the X, what came to mind was what they say about what we want versus what we do NOT want, i.e Abraham. For me personally a protective bubble works - not all the time of course.

:hi:

[lildreamer316]

5. Interesting

idea about the bubble; maybe I'll try that.

I'm going to try and find some good clearing and forgiving mediation ideas..thanks.

[NuttyFluffers]

6. your doubting yourself with cognition. it clutters up the intuition tuning.

cognition is great when you have a problem that needs to be figured out. but it's useless when you are trying to "listen" and take in, with regards to your precognition. precog comes when it comes, often when i'm real relaxed and detached. maybe it's the same for you. but it's never really what i was looking for or controllable for me.

with regards to projecting, that's an issue of doubting yourself through lack of faith. something doesn't have to be 100% to be effective (look at most medicine in existence). just because it didn't repel one person, you have no idea whether it repelled others. just because you had an unbroken sweet streak before doesn't mean you don't know how to seal areas and abjure visitors. you need to accept occasional breaks and reinforce your faith.

my best advice? forgive yourself for not being "perfect" all the time. then go out and live. when the abilities kick back in, you'll know and feel it's right.