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My student loan has been in default since I got remarried to an abusive monster who kept me pregnant and housebound for three yers... the money was in HIS control, and I was certainly not going to get finished with my education in that circumstance. When I left 4 years ago, (ran for my life, with 3 kids in tow...) I was hoping to get back on my feet and get my credit straightened out and finally, maybe, finish my BA...get a "good job" and buy a house someday for us to be a family in.
The closest thing I got to a good job was a receptionist position at a contractors office, where a .50 cent raise was held hostage under close scrutiny...I was then forced to quit because my daughter was diagnosed woith a birth defect that has us traveling to specialists all over no cal...I had to go into "business" for myself, freelancing and taking whatever I can get, even working until midnight at home to make an extra $25. I make $500 a month from a part time gig at my church, and that is for a family of four.(including one teenager) HIS father stopped paying childsupport because they wanted an extra $50 a month (because of the $50K he owes me for the years he ran) - that was 1/2 my income, and we have been on the skids since January... I kep trying not to freak out, but there aren't enough hours in the day to make the money we need to survive! (Not when I only get from $8-10 / hr)
I called the student loan people to try and get out of default becaus I SO desperately need my tax return to try and get out of this HOLE
So now here I am, I've had my tax return (EIC) "eaten" by the feds for the last five years because of this, and everytime I try to contact someone to get into a place of forbearance due to hardship, they refer me to a collection agency that will only accept payments (well over $250 a month) for 12 months before they even consider letting me APPLY for forbearnce, and then my actual HARDSHIP has to be determined. I'll tell you about my HARDSHIP, dammit!
I understand the need to get people to pay back their owed money. But when I was 22 and in college and they told me I was going to get all this money (which, mind you , went to living expenses like a deposit on an apartment, or childcare for my oldest son) "by the time you graduate, you'l be making so much, that the repayment will only take five years..."
There's no program for victims of domestic violence and financial hardships like this? I can't even pay my utilities this month, have to beg for food from my church, and next week I have to drive 300 miles to take my daughter for hr quarterly bloodtest and specialist visit because of her condition.
As I revealed some of this dificulty to the person at the Dept of Education... The lady said on the phone that there was nobody I could talk to to change the rules, unless I wanted to call my congressman (ha!)
I hung up the phone and just started crying... HOw can I get out of this endless hole, just say "fuck it" and find an illegal way to get ahead - like our government...? I am seriously wondering if I should even try to file my taxes at this point, because they wil go for garnishing my wages next - (from my church job that only pays $250 every 2 weeks!!!! ) How can they do this to a family ...
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