Crespi sobs in jail cell; begs for forgiveness

[surfermaw]

Crespi sobs in jail cell; begs for forgiveness
Expected to plead guilty today to killing twin daughters
GARY L. WRIGHT
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David Lauren Crespi
Crespis ache, apart and together
RALEIGH - David Crespi cries alone in his cell when he thinks of how he stabbed to death his 5-year-old twin daughters six months ago.

He wakes up in the middle of the night and wonders: "How could I do something like this? ... I robbed Tess and Sam of a wonderful life and from the people who loved them."

Other nights, he sees them in his dreams.

"Sam and Tess are playing. Or they're riding their bikes," the 45-year-old former bank executive recalls. "We're together."

Crespi, who confessed to killing twins Samantha and Tessara, is expected to plead guilty today to two counts of first-degree murder and spend the rest of his life in prison.

During recent interviews at Central Prison in Raleigh and Mecklenburg's jail, Crespi talked about his life behind bars since his daughters' slayings in January. He spoke about his desire to live and his love for his wife, Kim, and all his children. As he reminisced about Samantha and Tessara, he wiped away tears.

"Sam and Tess are in heaven now," he said. "I know it. They were both wonderful little girls. They were innocent."

In the days after the killings, a despairing Crespi thought his wife would never want to see him again. Then, in April, she came to visit him.

Crespi recalled his first words to his wife: " `I'm sorry,' I told her. `I love you.' I told her, `That wasn't me.'

"And Kim told me, `I know.' She told me she knew that wasn't me. She knew I wasn't thinking properly."

In his confession, Crespi told homicide detectives about his long battle with depression and how over the years he had thought about killing his wife, children and parents. He even thought about running over strangers with his car.

Crespi told the detectives he had always been able to stop himself from hurting his family. The twins' killings, he said, "had to happen today because the thoughts ... weren't stopping." The senior vice president at Wachovia described how he killed the twins during a game of hide and seek.

"I knew I'd hurt them," Crespi, his lips quivering, told the Observer. "I knew they were dead. But I never looked at them."

http://www.com/mlb/charlotte/news/15141536.htm

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[TallahasseeGrannie]

1. There are no words

[Teaser]

2. His belief in heaven

is helping him avoid the gravity of what he did.

[booksenkatz]

3. ... so is his apparent love of baked chicken.

Sure, he stabbed his little girls during a game of hide 'n seek, but at least the prison serves baked chicken, woo hoo!
:puke::puke::puke:

[Schema Thing]

12. His belief in Heaven probably put him over the top

religious belief is all over many murders, and frankly, by their logic, it makes sense. Ticket to paradise. No more of this bad old, can't-be-fixed earth.

We've had 4 moms in Texas, in the last couple of years, who killed their children while in a delusional psychotic state. All of them either believed it God's will, or thought they were protecting their children from wickedness here on earth and/or Satan.

[Mandate My Ass]

4. since when does depression cause homicidal ideations?

I've heard of suicidal ideations from depression. Sounds to me like a rage problem but I'm not a shrink so that's just my 0.02.

[Marie26]

13. It sounds

like a mental illness, but depression doesn't generally make people murder small children. I don't see any adequate explanation here for what he did.

[Javaman]

5. "She knew I wasn't thinking properly."

ya think?

asshole.

[booksenkatz]

7. This accompanying article...

http://www.charlotte.com/mld/charlotte/news/15141537.htm

... has some items that strike me as strange. After the murders, he says he had considered killing his wife and other family members too, but the wife says she doesn't believe that. As if his stabbing the little girls dozens of times wouldn't convince her that he was capable of that? He killed my twins but he never would have killed me? What makes her so special and untouchable?

I've always been intrigued by people who move on so easily after horrific murders -- I never know whether to be inspired by their example or sickened by it.

[Javaman]

10. I attribute it to insanity...nt

[Evergreen Emerald]

6. but he was insane

we should get him the help he needs. With meds and treatment, he could be a productive member of society again. He was insane.













(sarcasm)

[Lance_Boyle]

8. He should've been Texan

and female.

[robcon]

9. ...or gotten better legal representation.

n/t

[seriousstan]

11. He needs to swing right beside Yates. Holding hands if possible.

No sarcasm at all.

[midnight]

14. Isn't Wachovia a credit card co. If this is the comp. that

I think that it is. He must of been under a mountain of stress. Now, compound that with his thoughts for killing and that is some strong recipe for disaster.