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us the last ten years of reinforced division tactics....Bush claimed to be a uniter, he actually ran on that slogan, he had been our governor here in Texas, far too many believed him, I did not...
Witnessing the attacking of President William Clinton had left me shaken and disturbed by those that called themselves Republican. I began to feel anxious, angry and began to experience a wariness that I had never felt before inside the spectrum of political partisan insiders..I began a slow interest in what was occurring in our country, truth is that I took far too much for granted...
I had always relied on our leaders to worry for me, to think for me, to take care of things that I felt I was not exactly experienced enough to take an interest in on a more personal level of awareness and actions, I allowed our leaders free reign to enact laws, decide what was good for me and what was bad..I allowed them to decide for me who was friend and who was foe...
Then the horrific display of hate and lies begun to take the democratic party down by the conservative base who as I did called themselves American citizens.., President William Clinton seemed to me their first major target..
Through the media and columnists I was forced to watch something I thought was long gone..a hatred had begun to swell inside our very own borders pitting brother against brother, sister against sister, friend against friend, a slow dividing of American had once again been reborn with a loud trumpet of voices, many unrecognizable though eerily familiar...
I had innocently believed that bigotry, racism and distrust of those different from ourselves was a thing of the past, lost in my youth, witnessed but then silently vanishing...
I guess I was lulled into a false belief that the human race, americans specifically had learned their lessons of prejudice and dishonor among neighbors and were on the right path to real unity and caring...
I was wrong..
The hatred and anger never left our country, the fear of those different from ourselves still simmered beneath the surface, hidden and yet just waiting to be reborn..
I wrongly believed that justice would always be served for the american people, that our politicians would never forget that they fought and worked for we the people to ensure we prospered and we remained as one...
I wrongly believed that the history of religious persecution along with power hungry and greedy religious leaders was a thing of the past, that never again would religion be used to incite hate, distrust and become nothing more than a weapon to be used as it had been in the dark ages, to instill fear so that people would not dare question it's leaders and simply follow along like little steeple that easily can be likened to being unable to think for one's self..
I honestly believed that humans in general learned from history, did all they could to ensure history was never allowed to repeat itself...
I grew up, I grew up fast as I watched them attempt to destroy a human being, President Clinton whom I had come to admire so firmly though unlike others I never held him or anyone else to impossible standards not one person I have ever met or I am sure will meet could ever live up to..
In my mind, these power hungry, greed pathetic excuse for human leaders begun their slow take over of our very own country during the Clinton years...
I think like myself he was taken by surprise by the attack, by the viciousness of once thought friends turning foe in a very short time..
I watched, I listened, I read...and I felt sickened...fearful...
And when it was time to vote for a new leader in 2000 I without hesitation decided on President Gore..I call him so because I honestly feel he is our rightful president....
I had once thought Bush harmless, caring...not perfect but then again who was..but he was easily seen as one of them the moment he began his desire to take over our country and rape her blind by standing side by side of those I had already realized were a very real threat to this country...
The campaign, the march for power was not pretty, their real desire fairly easy to see, to this day I am dumbfounded how so many seemed to have been fooled by the lies, the manipulation that allowed them to once again hate, distrust and wish to war with not only another country, but their once cherished, family members, friends, even strangers...
I blame myself for what has been allowed to happen these past ten years, I blame my lack of attention, my laziness, my selfishness that my personal problems came first before anyone or anything else regardless of the uneasiness I felt so long ago..I despise my weakness that allowed me to do nothing...my fear that my voice was just not loud enough to shout our my fears, that my intelligence was so lacking that I felt that surely I could change little, by doing nothing more than worrying, being angry by not honestly helping to save our country, our citizens that I surely will feel that guilt til my last breath that I did nothing and people died, people became lost, homeless and left even more fearful than I of what the future held..
You see, I knew in my heart, I sensed it well before the voting day for the presidential election of 2000, I whispered my concerns to friends, family members but did little else..to be fair, no one really listened to me early on, I had never before taken an interest in the goings on of our government and or its structure...but I knew..
I knew then and thankfully many many many know it as well and hopefully like me that want to make amends, they want to finally do something to stop these people, ...perhaps we can do something now, its not too late...it can never be too late...they cannot win again...
We can't let them...our children deserve the peace I once knew, the security of country loyalty I once felt, the admiration of other countries that once we were a better nation, a better people, a caring community, and even though I have no doubt racism will always simmer, hatred will always be just beneath the surface, intolerance will be felt by many but we can hope, we can ensure that once again.. Such human flaws shall become buried..and I cannot do it alone, nor can you, but together we are stronger, we can ensure we win, that our country wins, that humanity wins, that tolerance and peace and unity is restored, and by doing so, we can help the world to become a better place for all, not just for ourselves..
And perhaps one day soon, we will once again be seen as a great country, a great people a shining light in a world that has become darkened...
JMTC
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