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There are some black women who worry about sexism more than racism. I'm not one of them.
I feel left out when the discussion becomes about women, because those discussions are never about women of color. They are about white women.
Because I am left out of those discussions about 'women's issues', it follows that black men are left out of discussions about 'men's issues'. Therefore I am doubly appalled when a black man, a man who belongs to a race which has unique issues in America, is treated like The Evil Man Who Has Run Things Into The Ground.
White women weren't being lynched as a group even through the 60s, for attempting to exercise the right to vote. Blacks, men and women, were. The faces in the crowd shouting hatefully at those black men and women... were white men *and* women.
So here Senator Obama is -- only THE THIRD Senator of African American descent since the 1870s, reconstruction, the end of slavery....... and these editorials and letters to the editors and cartoons are trying to present white women as seeing some kind of victory in Hillary Clinton beating Senator Obama, because Obama is the stand in for Men (tm) Who Have Always Held Power and Screwed Up That Power?
It's enough to make me shiver away and vomit. It's depressing to me. It makes me grind my teeth. It makes me scream.
It makes me think about the old Southern 'conventional wisdom' about the fears of blacks holding power.
It makes me think of D. W. Griffith's "Birth of a Nation"... and those horrible scenes of 'what those darkies did after getting emancipation when they tasted a little power' -- because the code I see in New Hampshire and the aftermath of New Hampshire is not of women beating men, but of whites preventing blacks from gaining power in the nick of time... and saving silly, innocent, pure white womanhood in the process.
That is where my anger comes from, and my depression.
It's also where my apology to the white women of DU, what it is born of.
I can't brush all white women with a single brush stroke, just as I ask women not to paint all men with the same brush stroke or engage in sexual oneupmanship.
That is my fear, my worry, I fear that I have painted entire groups with a broad brush that may not be warranted. That's not fair. The struggle is everyone's. We just don't all come at the struggle or attack the struggle from the same angles, and that's fine, that's life.
There really are women who see sexism as the single greatest threat to American society, and I have to respect that, even as I don't really believe it. I'm not going to ever respect 'Symbolically kill all men because men fucked up everything', however.
Perhaps I need more life experience.
But again, I apologize to those who were brushed broadly and should not have been.
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