Earlier tonight I posted a thread in which I referred to Oklahomans as "Dumb okies". DWolper replied in another thread with a thoughtful and polite critique. Rather than admitting that I was wrong, I decided to let my anger get to me. Look at what my anger brought to DU:
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Very productive, yes? Because of one thoughtless, angry comment i have reduced DU'ers to sniping at each other viciously. Oh sure, that's what this forum is for, but that doesn't matter. What matters is I did this. I reduced you, whom I've considered to be friends over these last few months, to hating one another.
Our anger is strong right now, friends, but it is misdirected.
I look back over the other things I posted, and they seem almost sub-human in how callous they sound. This is not who I am. I know this is not who we are.
I'm just angry and in shock right now, and I never meant to hurt any of you, I never meant to make you hate one another. That's what it is you know-hate.
I became a democrat because deep down, beneath all the cynicism and sarcasm and bitterness I feel sometimes, I really do love people and I want the best for them. I want the best from myself, but i failed tonight.
I forgot Barak Obama's words, the ones that nearly brought me to tears. We have gay friends in the red states, and we worship a powerful god in the blue states. Well, I don't, but that's another thread. The point is Blue state/ red State is an artificial division, created by the media, the republicans. Have we forgotten that's always how the powerful win, by dividing and conquering?
Well, I for one don't want to have any part in it. I need to take a break in the lounge maybe, or just take a break all together, so i can seriously reassess what my anger and hate has made me. I'm sorry guys. And to all you Oklahomans, my deepest apologies. I hope if I'm ever in OKC or Tulsa we can have a drink.
It ain't my will or my spirit, but my fucking heart that's broken. We've only got ourselves in this world now.