Many of us agree with you on not wanting to shoot another person.
For example in post #8 in this thread, I said
"The last thing I would ever want to do is shoot someone. However, if three people break my door down and I have my family to worry about I intend to do my best to stop their attack. ... If alone in the house and at a range of more than 20 feet I might draw down on them and politely ask them to leave. If they don't immediately comply or rush me, I will shoot."I have read similar posts from many pro-RKBA posters in the past. Many of of are very familiar with topics involving firearms and are well aware of the psychological after effect of shooting. Cops often experience this.
AFTER THE GUN GOES OFFby Keith Bettinger
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Post Shooting Trauma is the internalization of stress following a shooting. (1) It is a combination of stress, fear, confusion and anxiety. It usually sets in after your moral beliefs and reality come in conflict.
There are many symptoms of Post Shooting Trauma, and a person suffering from it can suffer any one, any combination, or all of the following symptoms.
The first is sleep pattern disturbances. Either insomnia or nightmares. Insomnia is simply the inability to relax and sleep following the shooting.
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The dreams can be a reliving of the incident, night after night. Or, it can be a dream of being involved in another shooting, and being either wounded or killed. Some officer have dreamed that the person they killed was standing at the foot of their bed. Some admit to being so frightened by this experience they have jumped up in a sweat, screaming in fear.
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80% of officers involved in shootings have nightmares related to their incident. 10% have a variation dream in which they dream of being in different shooting incidents. Those that dream of being killed are probably experiencing some form of guilt, whether imagined or real.
However, there is a benefit to having these nightmares. According to Dr. Pasquale Carone of South Oaks Hospital in Amityville, New York, dreams are a way of working out a solution to a problem. Once the solution is reached, the nightmares will usually stop.
http://www.tearsofacop.com/police/articles/aftergun.html Melting Down But Still in ChargeWeb sites that describe “police trauma syndrome” note that shooters can experience sound and time distortions during and after the critical incident, making it hard to describe accurately what happened, and sometimes even hallucinations after the fact, or a feeling of being haunted, though this is more common in situations where the shooter has been under threat himself or killed someone. Some develop “John Wayne syndrome” after the fact, taking excessive risks in a self-destructive way, while others are subject to self-doubt, compulsions, alcoholism, overeating, and gambling. Their job performance and family relationships can deteriorate, and they can fall prey to episodes of depression and helplessness, with occasional suicidal thoughts.
Non-police shooters oftentimes share similar symptoms that police, who are authorized to shoot, experience less often: “Mark of Cain” syndrome, in which shooters come to see themselves as tainted or otherwise permanently marked, especially if the shooting received widespread publicity.
http://www.prospect.org/cs/articles?article=melting_down_but_still_in_charge Your advice on securing your home is always good and definitely could save you from a home invasion. Being prepared for a situation is always good but avoiding it is better.