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I mean, I know there are various ways to interpret dreams, but I don't know what else to do.
Context: I was always extremely close with my grandparents. From birth to five, I lived with them. And from 12 to their deaths, I lived with them again. The time I spent not living with them, I was only a mile or so from their house. So to say they were an important part of my life is an understatement. I loved them. They loved me. They were awesome. We'd fight, but I think that's normal, you know?
Well grandpa went in 2002 and grandma in 2003. It was very painful for me and I still dream about them a lot. Most of the dreams involve them being alive and coming back from vacation (when the whole family thought they were dead). However, I've had these two dreams that have disturbed me. The first came a few months back. It was my grandparents' wedding anniversary. We were at a party and there were televisions hanging from the ceiling. Everyone was just relaxing and eating watching TV when my grandma ripped into me for my TV being loud. I don't recall everything she said, but it was very cruel and I remember waking up shaking because it was just so out of character.
The second dream happened last night. It was my grandpa's birthday and I walked up to him with a gift and gave it to him. He opened it, looked at it, looked at me and said something hurtful again (I don't exactly recall) and then dismissed me by saying I wasn't needed anymore.
Again, I awoke upset.
What in the world does this mean? Is it possible I feel like I've let my grandparents down somehow?
I don't know what to think, but it's been eating at me all day. The first I dismissed as a silly dream. But this reinforced that dream and now I'm left confused.
Anyone? Thanks in advance!
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