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Lost Cove & The Rose of San Antone
Evening comes on. I put on a clean white shirt and feel how well it fits me. I pour bourbon, with spring water from a plastic jug, and look out sliding glass doors at green suburban hills blurred with smog. Two watches lie on the table before me: one set for now, one telling time in 1938, their glass faces reflecting the round California sky.
The man I see through the eye of the second watch sits in a silence too deep for my nerves and stares out at twilight fading on trunks of pine and oak. The black Model-A car rusts into the stream that runs past his cabin in Lost Cove, Tennessee. He reaches for the whiskey on the table, and his sleeve clears a path through pine needles and dust.
The coal that tumbles out of his hillside soils the air and brick houses in Nashville. Words burn in the rain there from the power of water that runs past his door. He looks at his watch and turns on the radio. The music reaches him, all the way from Nashville. He holds his glass of whiskey up to the light that is almost gone. Its color suits his thoughts.
The fiddles and autoharp fill up the dark room and push out through paint-blackened screens into black oaks that press against the house. His face hurts me. It doesn’t look right. He goes against the grain of whiskey he has made himself, and rides the wire-song of a steel guitar through small towns, through the bug-crowded air of farm crossings late at night.
The disembodied, high guitar line swims in his nerves like a salmon up a flint-rock stream, falls like a hawk on blood. The whiskey burns and soothes. His tongue starts to move to the words of the song: trains and big woods and bottomless rivers, hard drinking, broken hearts and death. His blood knows whose song this is. He’s never swum in no bottomless river, or rode that night train to Memphis, or sat and started at those thirteen unlucky bars. But he sees the moon rise, with the Rose of San Antone tattooed on it in blood. A waitress in Denver glides toward him with drinks on a tray. He stumbles, drunk, through strange woods by an airport and walks out in San Francisco with a gun in his pocket…
The moon sets, over hills cold and unfamiliar. I shut off the radio, and hear the sea-roar of the freeway. Who is this man I dreamed up? I cork the bottle, and get up and lock the door.
Richard Tillinghast
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:hi:
RL
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