So I stopped myself from having a total melt down today

[AllentownJake]

Work is fucking crazy, if I yawn the wrong way I get a call into my bosses office because a new bosses boss type guy is coming in and management is doing what management does in every organization when there is uncertainty...kick their employees so they feel like they are doing their jobs. I can't do anything about it because of the job market. I'm pretty much there to be kicked even though 3 months ago all I got was praise.

No one could visit my brother this weekend at the group home and he called me 20 times and I felt guilty. I got a ticket for $110 at 11:00 last night for running a stop sign in an empty neighborhood and the cop was a total asshole about it. Some fucking 25 year old lecturing me about how dangerous it was that I missed a stop sign at 25 mph in a neighborhood with no traffic. I have 10 days to pay the damn thing and with other bills I'm not sure if I can squeeze it out and the entire reason why I was fucking out in that area was I was doing something for a friend.

Than there was this entire "special olympics" nonsense...hey Jake is the guy with the mentally disabled brother...lets get his take. My republican ex who has a special needs 2 year old...really wanted to stick it to me. "What do you think about your buddy now" I could give a flying fuck...the same thing I thought about my buddy yesterday.

Plus I'm being pulled into 20 different directions with everyone wanting my help on something and this helping out with the party locally is wearing thin on me. Its not very much fun. To many damn fanctions...and they are petty and stupid.

So I just stopped and lied in bed all day. Just didn't fucking feel like doing a thing. Cancelled everything and lied in bed because if I didn't I think I was going to crack.

[firedupdem]

1. Hang in there.....

:hug:

You're a good guy and you deserved a break today.

[AllentownJake]

2. Thanks

:hug:

Its just so frustrating some times...

[firedupdem]

3. I know what you mean. I'm in a shitty situation and mood myself.

It's okay to take a day and do absolutely nothing.

[AllentownJake]

4. All I wanted to do this weekend was take a walk in the woods

but I was stupid last night and after I got the ticket downed 3 beers to calm down and woke up too late to do it.

[AllentownJake]

5. Hang in there too

:hug:

[firedupdem]

7. Thanks.... n/t

[Haole Girl]

6. So many people are under so much stress right now

Just try to think of the good things.

I know it's difficult.

I'm dedicating this song to you...

Jewel "Hands" (1998)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5gQeA5uETU

:hug:

[AllentownJake]

8. Thanks

I have a shitload to be thankful for and I need to remind myself of that, but I'm also a little bit of a victim of my own success right now...ever since the Obama campaign...everyone seems to want a piece of me locally and I have a hard time saying no to people.