I'm cracking here folks.

[lizziegrace]

x(

[bicentennial_baby]

1. ...

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

2. What's up?

[lizziegrace]

5. Looking at the jobs posted everywhere there are jobs posted

it's worse now than it was last fall. One agency that had dozens of jobs last fall has one. ONE. And it's not in my area of expertise.

And my former employer is fighting my unemployment claim.

[Fire Walk With Me]

8. I'm sorry to hear it. Hang in there, vent in the forum

and stay positive. :hug:

[TZ]

10. huh?

They laid you off but are fighting unemployment? Whats the justification for that? :wtf:

[lizziegrace]

12. People aren't what they seem

I'll just leave it at that.

[Orrex]

26. On what grounds are they fighting your claim?

[MissMillie]

3. how can we help?

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

6. Say a prayer

:(

[Heidi]

4. !

:hug:

You are loved. :loveya:

[lizziegrace]

11. Thanks.

My mom's still going through cancer treatments, so I haven't told them yet. I won't be able to pay the rent for February and I'm behind in my utility bills. Things will start getting turned off soon. My credit cards have already threatened to cancel me. I paid Lelapin's tuition the week before they laid everyone off.

I'll call Ohio State and see if there are any resources. Don't hold your breath though. They're notoriously hard to deal with if you can even get through.

Damn.

[lost-in-nj]

7. Aww Lizzie

I wish I was closer....
:hug:

lost

[graywarrior]

9. I just applied for the census job

$15 hour plus mileage. Hate doing it, but I have to do something.

[lizziegrace]

13. When does it start?

Soon enough to keep me from being homeless?

[graywarrior]

17. buddhamama sent me this link

http://2010.census.gov/2010censusjobs/2010censusjobsmap/2010censusjobsmap2.php?x=2041&y=281&state=NH&zoom_level=400

Call the 866 number and it gives you all the info, then press 0 to talk to a real person who will tell you what to do in your area.

Jobs supposedly start in Feb but most start in April til sometime in the fall.

[Zomby Woof]

14. Can you file a new claim based on your most recent job?

I know they're being #(@(@!& about the previous claim, but can a new claim be filed when your situation changes? A clean slate?

The holes in the saftey net are appalling. We are all here for you though. :hug:

[lizziegrace]

15. That's what I did

based on my most recent employer. They're the ones fighting it.

[Zomby Woof]

18. Rat bastard motherfucking....

:nuke:

I see that you're logging off... take care, liz. :hug:

[lizziegrace]

16. I'm logging off for a while

Thanks for listening. :(

[Taverner]

19. What do you do?

Maybe I can help....

[1gobluedem]

20. When is the Feb rent due?

Can we help with that? Is the PayPal acct still active?

[I Have A Dream]

39. She responded to my request about this in another thread.

Here's the link:

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=105&topic_id=8384765&mesg_id=8386932

[BarenakedLady]

21. I'm sorry.

Here's a hug :hug:

I've been feeling on the verge of cracking too. I hope things start going your way soon, you certainly deserve a break or two (or 1000)

:hug:

[Debi]

22. Hang in there

:hug:

[TK421]

23. Jesus why the fuck can't you get a break for once? Sorry about this

I only wish there was something I could do

[Aristus]

24. I'm praying for you, lizzie.

I hope things can get straightened out for you... :hug:

[SPKrazy]

25. I will say a prayer for you my friend

I wish for you only good things and I am humbled by your struggles and believe that you will find something soon.

:hug:

[SalmonChantedEvening]

27. Cara Mia

Sending warm, loving vibes of comfort and hope.

:hug: :loveya: :hug:

:hanky&shoulder:

[crimsonblue]

28. somebody get the super glue, stat!

[lizziegrace]

52. ...

:thumbsup:

[AlCzervik]

29. Sorry Lizzie.

you so have a huge break coming, good things are going to happen for you i know.


:hug:

[Wapsie B]

30. Good vibes on the way.

Anything to help.

[lizziegrace]

31. Thank you everyone.

The engine light, which had gone out when the battery was replaced, has come back on. No idea why. No $$ to find out why.

I'm going to tell my parents tonight. The bill collectors are hounding me. I'll probably be hauled in to court for breaking my lease. I've got 2 pills left that I take for anxiety attacks and just a couple puffs left in my rescue inhaler. Both require a doctor's visit to refill. I feel like I'm literally going to jump out of my skin. I was three weeks from FINALLY getting medical insurance.

I'm sure by the time the conversations over with my parents, I'll be selling or giving away most everything I own to move to Oregon. Unemployment's even worse there, but they won't listen.

Ten years ago, I quit my university job to start my own accounting practice. Two months later, my then-husband quit his job to finish his terminal degree. Left me with no income and no insurance. No safety net. Shortly after, it came out he was having an affair with a former grad student. Since then (divorce and all the insanity), I haven't been able to find my footing. All my supposed friends disapeared once I wasn't part of a couple. Too many holidays spent alone and no vacation for 10 years. No stability.

I'm not strong enough to keep starting over and over and over. I can't fight alone. Not any more.

I don't expect anyone to solve my problems. I just needed to vent.

Yes, I'd like to catch a break.

x(

[SPKrazy]

32. Bless you Lizziegrace

:hug: :hug:

its time you caught a break...I think you deserve one... here's hoping things go well with your talk,and here's to a break! :cheers:

:grouphug:

prayers

[lizziegrace]

33. Thank you

:hug:

for once, I'd like a chance to pay it forward. There are so many people hurting out here. :(

[JenaLaw]

35. hug and support

Hi Lizzie,

We don't know each other well, but I understand the Mom-with=Cancer concept...my mom is fighting it too. GOOD LUCK with your talk tonight...sending you a hug.

Wish there was more that I could do for you. Sending you lots of e-support...and a shoulder to lean on if you need it. Message me here or over on facebook.

Jenna

[Dangerously Amused]

36. Let me know how the talk with the folks goes.

If Mom is facing cancer she might appreciate having you around, more than you know even. I mean you would love it if lelapin was around in those circumstances, right? I know, I know... no adult likes having to go to the parent's house again. But it's not a permanent thing, just a stepping stone until you can catch a break and get your bearings again. Honestly I think you've lasted a lot longer out there on your own, with such bad luck, than most people would. You can be proud of that.

Meantime keep on the job hunt.

And check your PM.

[Inchworm]

38. Hope things light up for you soon

:hug:

[SallyMander]

34. xoxoxo

:hug:

Wish there were something i could do. :(

[ThomCat]

37. I am thinking of you ever day.

:hug:

I wish I wasn't so far down. I wish I could help you. :cry:

[lizziegrace]

43. Same here sweetie

:hug:

I wish I could help you. :(

[GOPisEvil]

40. ....

:hug:

If you do end up in OR, let me know. I'll buy the donuts at Voodoo. :)

[Dystopian]

41. (((lizziegrace)))

I'm praying that something good will happen to lift your spirits...
Wishing you peace of mind...and sending love...:hug:
And another :hug: just because that's all I have....

peace~

[lizziegrace]

42. I'll take that hug

:hug:

I battle depression anyway. And winter and the stress of all this has really sent me in a spiral. I've been guarding the 2 pills I have left like gold - terrified to take them now as I might need them more later. I was so close to being able to go to the doctor with insurance and not have to fight the pre-existing condition crap.

I don't think a Doc-in-the-box will prescribe Klonapin and any other doctor will probably want multiple visits and may even want to try other meds. I can't afford all that, don't need all that and don't want all that.

My doctor in Columbus might prescribe it, but you can't call in or transfer a script for controlled substances to another state. (at least that's what I've been told.)

Bleh.

[Dystopian]

45. Sweetie....

We deal with the same issues....I went through a time when my MD was on vacation and the covering MD would not refill my perscription...I know what it feels like to cling to those pills.

I'm sure you're right about the doc not being able to call it into another state. My son went to Texas years ago, had raging panic, and our doctor tried to call in Xanax but they wouldn't do it. He then called it in at our local pharmacy so I could pick it up for him and mail it overnight. He knew that no doctor would give him Xanax with his long hair and tattoos...I'll never forget spending that night on the phone with my son...it was hell.
Our MD is a great humanitarian...and he jumped through hoops for us.

Is there a possibility that something like this could be worked out for you? Just a thought...
I know that the strife of life is so much harder when already dealing with anxiety and depression...
My heart goes out to you...:hug:

peace~

[lizziegrace]

46. I've applied for jobs back in Columbus as well as here

I'm hoping that if I get any interviews, I can take the time to see my old doctor. He actually has the drugs at the office and I can buy directly from him. He's a good man. He takes payments.

[Tuesday Afternoon]

44. ~

:hug:

[mwdem]

47. Check your pm

:hug:

[lizziegrace]

51. Got it

:hug:

[flvegan]

48. You're checking my industry right?

You know I'll lie like Cheney for you...

[lizziegrace]

49. I have been

I have absolutely no experience though. ;)

And thanks, Dick...

[flvegan]

53. Experience?

I got dumped into this as an IT guy looking to go to law school.

Experience matters little.

[lizziegrace]

54. We need to talk

I'll PM you in the morning.

:hug:

[flvegan]

56. Groovy. You know where I am.

[auntAgonist]

50. good vibes coming your way lizziegrace

I wish you much luck. You really need to catch a break here. I wish there was something I could do for you.

:hug:

:loveya:

aA
kesha

[hfojvt]

55. you are still in Mil-town area?

My brother used to manage a hotel in Germantown. He still works for a guy that owns hotels in that area. So if you want, or are willing to do hotel work, which might be kinda low paying, I might be able to put a word in or something. Let me know if I should try to help.