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"A Sunday Drive"
The skin seethes in the heat which roars out from the sun, wave after tidal wave; the sea is flat and hot and too bright, stagnant as a puddle, edged by a beach reeking of shit. The city is like a city, bombed out and burning; the smell of smoke is everywhere, drifting from the mounds of rubble. Now and then a new tower, already stained, lifts from the tangle; the cars stall and bellow. From the trampled earth rubbish erupts and huts of tin and warped boards and cloth and anything scavenged. Everything is the color of dirt except the kites, red and purple, three of them, fluttering cheerfully from a slope of garbage, and the women’s dresses, cleaned somehow, vaporous and brilliant, and the dutiful white smiles of the child beggars who kiss your small change and press it to their heads and hearts. Uncle, they call you. Mother. I have never felt less motherly. The moon is responsible for all this, goddess of increase and death, which here are the same. Why try to redeem anything? In this maze of condemned flesh without beginning or end where the pulp of the body steams and bloats and spawns and multiplies itself the wise man chooses serenity.
Here you are taught the need to be holy, to wash a lot and live apart. Burial by fire is the last mercy: decay is reserved for the living.
The desire to be loved is the last illusion: Give it up and you will be free.
—Margaret Atwood
Bombay, 1982
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