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Edited on Tue Jan-01-08 08:46 PM by CarolinaPeridot
I know some people are thinking its only been 10 years so CP what the hell are you talking about. But I feel that it has been 50 years since I graduated. I don't even know where to begin ... when I graduated, I said that I was never going to my reunion - I was the wallflower in high school. I wore glasses,had bad hair,I was never asked out on dates,my book bag was full of books,I was in the band so I was a band geek. Instead of going to the prom,I stayed at home and watched 60 minutes .Whew ... I had crushes and always got turned down ... by the time I graduated, I wanted out. My depression had just kicked in and I was on the run .I did not cry on graduation day because I was done with HS.I vowed to turn my back and just move forward. I was one of out the only 10 people from my 250 graduating class that attended college out of city ... everybody else has stayed here. Not me ...
That I did - I moved to Germany two years after graduation and lost contact with all of my friends.And thats when I just became "me". No more classes, my beauty from within came through. When I came back home from Germany in 2004 I still stayed MIA - I didn't know if people would accept me the way I am now because I am eccentric ... I am black and eccentric. Its hard for me to be understood by my community but I deal with it.Different is good...I am no longer that wallflower although on the inside I am still full of books,the band geek is still there. I do get asked out but I laugh at it now LOL. I think its funny that I get looks because 10 years ago I was picked on.
Well in 2007 through Facebook I have gotten in contact with a lot of friends from high school. I thought these people forgot about me and moved on ... turns out that I was always the one who they talked about "Where is she?" every year during homecoming .I was so busy worrying whether they would accept me and they have been missing me all the long. I can't wait until my 10 year reunion this fall. I am going to come as I am ... no fake Romy and Michelle stories ... I have some good stories to tell about my life since 1998. And I just want to go to show people how happy I am :)
Ok I am done ... just felt like writing ... something. My first post for 2008.
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