WARNING: Depressive post

[Perseid]

A brother dies. A sister in law dies. A former mother in law dies.

I found out yesterday that four of my childhood friends also died recently.

My friend is with the family 600 miles away.

My family is nuts.

Merry Nothing.

Work.

That's what makes us "tick", right?

Merry Work. It's the American way.

[Perseid]

1. Sorry folks, but I got hurt tonight

physically.

I would delete this if I knew how.

[Prisoner_Number_Six]

4. We're your collective shoulder. Don't be afraid to lean on us.

That's why we're here.

[Suich]

11. If you really want to delete this

click on your original post. At the bottom, where it says "edit", click that on. Then scroll down to your original post and erase it.

[Suich]

2. Sorry things suck so much for you now, Perseid.

Redstone posted this the other day...check it out:

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_topic&forum=105&topic_id=7277169

I hope things improve for you soon...



:)

[Droopy]

3. If you have nothing to feel happy about this holiday season

then feel free to kick the living shit out of me. I mean post-wise. Don't come over to my house and shit. :D

You can always have a drink and wish for peace on earth. I do that even though I have people in my life who care about me. If one drink doesn't work, try several.

[Perseid]

5. drinking is all I have right now

no broken bones, but a shitload of bruises and hurt. I'm an idiot.

[Perseid]

7. not thinking well now

my head hurts.


sl

[Droopy]

8. Oh, I'm sure you are not an idiot

Otherwise you would not try to confess that you are one. Chances are that you have done something that your better nature warned you against, but through some overbearing factors you went on and did anyway. Very human. It happens to me all the time if that makes you feel better.

[Breeze54]

12. No you aren't. ~ You're human and I'm sorry you're hurting.

Do you want my list?

Both my parents died, one after a long illness LIKE since I was 23!!!!!

She didn't even know who I was for most of my life.... :cry:

My fiance' was decapitated in an horrific car crash on I-5 and killed with his brother and our best man.

My husband used to rape me.... regularly. He said he 'owned me'.... :grr:

Seven of my friends were killed in a car accident at age 17. The SAME car accident, 2 cars. Same night!!!

I got hit by a drunk driver at age 26 and my car was totaled and I was in a neck brace for two years...

... and very poor due to non-payment by insurance and ex for child support and waiting for suit to be decided.

Should I go on??

But I've survived. You can too. :hug:

[Blue Diadem]

19. .

:hug:

[Blue Diadem]

20. .

:hug:

[Inchworm]

13. I Am Idiot!

not you! You are just Persiad.

A metero shower. Do you have any idea how many lovers love under you?

:loveya:

[Inchworm]

6. I love you

you dont know me but I honestly do love you.

:hug::cry::hug:

[Perseid]

9. wow, that was nice

I've got a friend here typing and taking me to the hospital. I'm alright.

(gotta go, typed this because I had to, but that's it

[Inchworm]

10. Good

Merry Christmas Perseid! I aint the only one that loves ya! Many do!

:hug:

[Blue Diadem]

24. Let us know that you're ok.

:hug:

[marzipanni]

14. I hope after you get taken care of at the hospital you'll have a good sleep

and tomorrow will be a better day. :hug:

[Inchworm]

15. OT a bit- but are you named after a confection?

I see your name.. I wonder...

:hug:

[marzipanni]

17. Yup, ground almonds, sugar syrup or honey

mixed together=marzipan. Panni was my aunt's dog, Hungarian for Anni,I was told. :hi:

[Inchworm]

18. woowoohooo!

I have been bull headed about lookin it up. ... nuts and corn syrup.. hmmm

:hi:

[bridgit]

16. very well, such is the cycle of life...

[hippywife]

21. Wishing you

healing and a future in which the intensity of your pain - physical, mental, and emotional - is far away. As long as there is breath, there is hope.

[FloridaJudy]

22. My mother died on Christmas day.

Of course, that was ten years ago, but my family always did have lousy timing. My father died on Easter (last time I looked Halloween and the Fourth of July were still safe).

But then, Dad was an atheist - and Mom believed that God was a tree - so neither of them had much use for organized religion. I'd like to believe my mother was right. Can you imagine how pissed Jerry Falwell would be right now?

I hear you. My best friend also died around Christmas two years ago. The holidays can be rough.

:hug:

[Perry Logan]

23. "My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains my sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk..."

MY heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains
My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,
Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains
One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:
'Tis not through envy of thy happy lot,
But being too happy in thine happiness,
That thou, light-wingèd Dryad of the trees,
In some melodious plot
Of beechen green, and shadows numberless,
Singest of summer in full-throated ease.

O for a draught of vintage! that hath been
Cool'd a long age in the deep-delvèd earth,
Tasting of Flora and the country-green,
Dance, and Provençal song, and sunburnt mirth!
O for a beaker full of the warm South!
Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene,
With beaded bubbles winking at the brim,
And purple-stainèd mouth;
That I might drink, and leave the world unseen,
And with thee fade away into the forest dim:

Fade far away, dissolve, and quite forget
What thou among the leaves hast never known,
The weariness, the fever, and the fret
Here, where men sit and hear each other groan;
Where palsy shakes a few, sad, last grey hairs,
Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies;
Where but to think is to be full of sorrow
And leaden-eyed despairs;
Where beauty cannot keep her lustrous eyes,
Or new Love pine at them beyond to-morrow.

Away! away! for I will fly to thee,
Not charioted by Bacchus and his pards,
But on the viewless wings of Poesy,
Though the dull brain perplexes and retards:
Already with thee! tender is the night,
And haply the Queen-Moon is on her throne,
Cluster'd around by all her starry Fays
But here there is no light,
Save what from heaven is with the breezes blown
Through verdurous glooms and winding mossy ways.

I cannot see what flowers are at my feet,
Nor what soft incense hangs upon the boughs,
But, in embalmèd darkness, guess each sweet
Wherewith the seasonable month endows
The grass, the thicket, and the fruit-tree wild;
White hawthorn, and the pastoral eglantine;
Fast-fading violets cover'd up in leaves;
And mid-May's eldest child,
The coming musk-rose, full of dewy wine,
The murmurous haunt of flies on summer eves.

Darkling I listen; and, for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Call'd him soft names in many a musèd rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,
While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!
Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain—
To thy high requiem become a sod.

Thou wast not born for death, immortal Bird!
No hungry generations tread thee down;
The voice I hear this passing night was heard
In ancient days by emperor and clown:
Perhaps the self-same song that found a path
Through the sad heart of Ruth, when, sick for home,
She stood in tears amid the alien corn;
The same that ofttimes hath
Charm'd magic casements, opening on the foam
Of perilous seas, in faery lands forlorn.

Forlorn! the very word is like a bell
To toll me back from thee to my sole self!
Adieu! the fancy cannot cheat so well
As she is famed to do, deceiving elf.
Adieu! adieu! thy plaintive anthem fades
Past the near meadows, over the still stream,
Up the hill-side; and now 'tis buried deep
In the next valley-glades:
Was it a vision, or a waking dream?
Fled is that music:—do I wake or sleep?

--Keats, "Ode to a Nightingale"

[ThomCat]

25. I'm sorry.

:(

[terrya]

26. I'm sorry

You're going through some really tough times right now. I'm so sorry.

But there are people here who care about you and hope things will be better.

[LeftyFingerPop]

27. I hear you Perseid...

The holidays can be very tough. Sometimes it is a victory just getting through them with your sanity. Hang in there, it will be alright. :hug: