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...I went through something like that a long time ago, when I was in college. We suddenly (and I do mean suddenly) went from an extraordinarily-intense three weeks together to her deciding we needed to break up because she "needed her space" (which, apparently, included hooking up with a lot of guys I knew).
It didn't make any sense at the time. Seven or eight years later, when we were back on speaking terms, she explained that, having just gotten out of a major (and not very positive) relationship, she was afraid of getting back into that situation again. It is telling that, in the few days before the break-up, a) she confided in me that some of her friends had been speculating that she and I would be married in a few years, and that, to her surprise, she didn't feel it was a ridiculous idea and b) I told her, for the first time, that I loved her. Almost immediately after that, she was out the door. She told me, at that later time, that we probably could have had a solid and long-lasting relationship had we gotten involved some months or years later; but, at that time, she wasn't going to get that deeply involved with anyone, no matter how good a couple they would have made with her.
I'm not saying that your ex was similarly just out of a bad relationship. But it seems obvious to me that there was a degree of intimacy she wasn't ready for, and that she ran when she realized she was getting that involved. The comment about not letting guys meet her kids until she was sure about them is, to me, the dead giveaway -- she obviously felt close enough to you that she was willing to take that step, and it's not surprising to hear that, shortly thereafer, she "became distant" with you. I'll bet she did -- it wouldn't surprise me to find that the very closeness scared her, and caused her to back away in a harsh (and, to you, destructive) manner.
In short, she probably would have done the same to any guy she had gotten involved with at this time in her life. She may well be ready for something like that in a while...but, then again, maybe not. In any event, as Mark Knopfler put it, "it's just that the time was wrong."
I hope you don't mind my saying this, but it also seems that you are much like I was at the time -- ready to get emotionally involved very quickly. A month in your case, three weeks in mine (and, to make it worse in my case, I actually proposed to my next girlfriend after the same amount of time together). The fact is, however intense a relationship may be, three weeks, or even three months, is far too short to determine whether or not that relationship can become more than just a short term involvement. As biologists have found recently, people are pretty much ruled by hormonally-driven emotions at that point; emotions that will gradually fade away as the aforementioned hormones subside. It's only then that a couple can really evaluate whether each is the right person for the other.
In the future, I would recommend that you don't even start thinking about a relationship becoming more than a "go out and have fun together*" situation until at least six months, or maybe twice that, have passed. Look at it this way...if you're going to be spending the rest of your life with someone, isn't it worth spending a few extra months -- or even years -- to make sure that person is the one you want beside you in the long term?
*(in and/or out of bed) :evilgrin:
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