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There is this girl in one of my classes, it's called "Writers, Women and Gods." She's an impressive young woman, very intelligent and beautiful.
Well, this is one of those cross courses, it is African Studies/Women's Studies/English, so we read a lot of books by authors like Toni Morrison which deal with racial and feminist issues. Very interesting class. So anyway, last week we are talking about racism and sexism, and this girl tells us a story about her boss.
In addition to being female, she is Mexican, and she reiterated a story that her boss sometimes makes racist sexist comments to her. Like once they were getting into a vehicle and he told her, probably he thought in jest, "You better get in the back, that's where black people and women belong." Something like that. And she used a few other examples too. They were awful, and you could tell it definitely hurt her to share those stories with us. She was very courageous, I doubt I could ever do something like that.
So after class when I got home, I sent her a quick email, telling her thanks for sharing, she shouldn't put up with that, she was too good to let that guy get to her and that she's an intelligent, beautiful woman etc. Now, I wasn't hitting on her, so please don't take it like that, I was merely showing her some support, and pointing out some positive things about her which would, hopefully, cheer her up. She truly touched me, so I felt compelled to let her know it.
Ok, today I walk into class, and she immediately makes eye contact with me and smiles. Now I can be very shy, especially when caught off guard a bit, and, frankly, the look she had on her face, pretty much made me melt, haha. She then says something to me about how she got my message, thank you etc.
All I could think to say was this. "HUH?" Nevermind that I heard her the first time. So she repeated her appreciation etc, and I stutter out: "Oh, uh... yeah... no problem, glad, uh.. you... to help..."
Honestly, just once I wish I could be smooth. I guess I'll have to settle for being charmingly inept in the meantime. :) Lack of smoothness or not, it was worth it just to be nice to somebody who was feeling a little down. I think compassion is sorely lacking these days, so I try to do my part from time to time. :)
But yes, that was how I was reduced to a stuttering idiot tonight.
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