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I didn't come out to my parents until after Bertha and I had met, fallen in love, and she was getting ready to relocate to the east coast to be with me. I'd been out to most of the world, except my parents since my early twenties. I knew that with Bertha I had something priceless beyond measure, and I decided to come out to mom and dad because I wanted them to know exactly who she is to me.
So, I was home to visit my family, and to attend the wedding of my cousin, in June before Bertha moved here in September. I sat down at the kitchen table with my parents, and I told them.
My parents are devout Southern Baptists (I have appropriated a line from Kate Clinton -- she describes herself as a recovering Catholic; I describe myself as a recovering Baptist). For years I had been convinced that they would tell me to leave their home and never return if I came out to them. It was a huge burden to bear, and I was terrified I would lose them.
There was silence for a moment. Then my dad said "you are a fine, caring, wonderful woman, and I am so proud of you. There is nothing you could ever do or say to make me love you less." My mom said she loved me more for telling them. I sobbed. I apologized to them for ever doubting their love. I get misty-eyed even now when I think about that moment.
My mom and I had a lot of rough times when I was growing up. I was not the daughter she wanted, and I always knew that. I used to wonder what I could do to make her like me. She and I were like oil and water, we were such opposites. We argued, yelled and screamed, and generally made life miserable for each other.
Now my mom says I am her best friend. I don't think I would have this relationship with her if I was still hiding in the closet.
My only regret is that there were many times in my life, before I came out to mom and dad, that I kept things from them that I think any child wants to share with parents - times of great sorrow when love was lost, and times of indescribable joy when love found its way back into my life. Maybe mom and dad could not have accepted me if I had come out to them before I did; I'll never know. One thing I do know, though, is how absolutely, astonishingly wonderful it is to know I am loved for the totality of who I am.
Tell your young friend that perhaps her mom's uneasiness stems from concern about how GLBT people are treated in this society. It's better now than it was when I was a young 'un, but it still is far from perfect.
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