|
I last posted that I got a new laptop (a MacBook) which I enjoy very much. I still have some things to work out like burning DVDs and posting pics.
Workwise, I finished up a contract in IT at the end of October. No, I haven't worked since then. Several things have gone around in my head since then. Yes. they do get rid of you usually in shitty ways. Especially in IT. But acting out in retaliatory ways doesn't help at all. I no longer expect people to behave professionally nor ethically. Sad, isn't it?
After taking some time off for the Holidays, I've done a lot of thinking over the past couple of months, especially about my last job. While I enjoyed it, there were aspects of it that were not good for me, especially in work vs life balance.
- Normally, I wake up naturally about daybreak, usually before the alarm clock. The entire month of November I slept late every day; that's how tired I was and didn't even realize it. (I'm one of those people who hardly ever takes vacation; even when it's offered.)
- I never felt that I had the time or space to do my best work. Time pressures on deadlines are just unreal IMHO. I work in technical editing and writing and I can tell you that you can only do things so quickly before you start sacrificing excellence in the name of speed. There was constant pressure to do the same amount of work in less and less time. I have a very low tolerance for this kind of pressure. And it's not something I can compromise on.
- Sitting in an office, I got way out of shape and returned to my old habit of nervous eating. I just had to have that candy bar every afternoon. And that workplace was too spread out to make going to a gym at lunch realistic.
- Never had the time or the inclination to pursue my own writing. Something I've dreamed about my whole life.
Realizing all this; my shortcomings and my needs, I've begun to consider the possibility of going freelance and runing my own job for myself. It sounds good. It also sounds scary. I don't know that I have the kind of personality that one would call entrepreneur. OTOH, I feel less and less like I fit into corporate america. Maybe I'm just deluding myself.
And no, I can't afford not to work. I must support myself. In times like this, I can see why a sugar daddy would be a nice thing. :P
Thoughts? Comments?
|