MY SUCK ASS CHRISTMAS! Dad had to be admitted w/103.5 fever!

[jus_the_facts]

....yep...so much for the so-called REMISSION huh? So much for havin' my family be here for the holidays and things lookin' up...instead he's in the hospital and I've got a sore throat...so can't even visit him in there since I'm prolly contagious AND IT COULD BE MY FUCKIN' FAULT HE'S IN THERE!! :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

[mmm]

1. let's go drink

I'll buy

[jus_the_facts]

4. K...I'll take some shots of Wild Turkey with some EverClear chasers......

:evilfrown:

[Zomby Woof]

2. whatever you do

DO NOT blame yourself!!!

Other than that, I am so sorry things have turned out this way on Christmas Eve. :-(

We're all here for ya! Thoughts are with your Dad too!

[jus_the_facts]

5. Thank You....but it's hard not to at this point......

...it just looks as if it IS my fault...they should never have come up here DAMMIT!!x(

[_NorCal_D_]

3. I'm sorry to hear that.

I'm not feeling so good myself. :puke:

[spooky3]

7. I'm sorry about you & jus_the_facts

I injured my foot yesterday and my cat had to go to the vet hospital for emergency surgery. He's still there and I have to go get him tomorrow. :-( But there are a lot of other people worse off in the world.

[jus_the_facts]

17. You are correct....wishin' a speedy recovery for you and your kitty.....

....I will take your words to heart. :pals:

[jus_the_facts]

9. Thanks....sure hope you get to feelin' better......

....don't think I will ever feel better though...fallin' apart at the seams...the shit just keeps gettin' heaped on here! :evilfrown:

[Malva Zebrina]

6. I am sorry

please do not blame yourself. We cannot control things such as that no matter how hard we think we can try to do so. We expect so much from this great big holiday--too much, I think. I hope your dad recovers in a very short time.

[jus_the_facts]

10. Thank you...

....this is just NOT the way I wanted things to be AT ALL...he was supposed to be gettin' better...now this happens!x( But I appreciate your kind words!

[SeattleDem]

8. I don't know the whole story

but sounds like your dad has cancer. I'm sorry to hear that.

Don't blame yourself for his fever - usually when someone with cancer has a low white blood cell count and gets an infection (ie, develops a fever), it is due to the bacteria that live on his own body. Like the bacteria on the skin, in the mouth, in the stomach etc, so don't beat yourself up - he probably didn't catch anything from you. He should be fine - he's getting treatment in the hospital and you can celebrate Christmas when he gets home.

think good thoughts!

[jus_the_facts]

12. Yep it's Leukemia....he's had it for over a year and had a relapse.....

...a couple months ago...but was supposed to have gone back into remission a couple weeks ago...now I'm not so sure they were right about that with this happening.

It's almost impossible to think good thoughts with the state of the world and now this all goin' the way it is...I'm losin' the ability to lighten up....just a couple weeks ago my Papaw died of a sudden heart attack...my Dad's Dad...now this hope of remission is bein' dashed...and I'm comin' down with strep or the flu...just doesn't seem there is a bright side anymore. :(

[Old and In the Way]

11. If it'll make you feel better........

I lost my dad when I was 24....26 years ago. Be thankful he's still with you. I know how this season can make these things even worse, but try to focus on the upside if you can.

All the best!

[jus_the_facts]

14. I am thankful he's still here....

...and I am so very sorry for your loss....I'm thankful for a lot of things even though it all seems so bleak right now. :hug:

[childslibrarian]

13. I'm sorry

I hope everything turns out well....

[jus_the_facts]

15. Thank You...if I could truly have what I wanted for christmas....

...it would be for ME to have this cancer instead of him.

[nothingshocksmeanymore]

16. Amber I am sorry to hear this

It is NOT your fault..he has a weakened immune system and infections are opportunistic.

My prayers will be with you and your family.

Love,

T

[jus_the_facts]

18. Thank you....and they're most needed again....

....I know it's prolly not my fault...it's just such a let down and I'm feelin' sorry for m'self when I shouldn't be but can't help it...after my Papaw's death and thinkin' my Dad was gonna be FINE...this is NOT how I wanted things to be now ya know. :cry:

I love you...very very much! :hug: :loveya:

[grasswire]

19. emotions are running high...

....this time of year and everyone's either sick or afraid of being sick. Take care of yourself. Ease up on yourself. Sometimes the hardest holidays turn out to be the ones in which we find small miracles. Do what you can and don't feel guilty about the germs your dad got. They're everywhere!

[jus_the_facts]

25. Thank you....

...I'm hopin' for miracles not only for my Dad but for every single solitary person on the planet...as we're all are in need of some kind of divine intervention at this point.

[amazona]

20. it isn't your fault

That does suck. My heart goes out to you. But you couldn't have known, and you don't really know where these bugs come from.

I'll be thinking of you and hoping you can see your Dad real soon.

[jus_the_facts]

26. Thank you....hopin' the antibiotics will knock it out quickly...

...and the remission is real and not just wishful thinkin' on the doctors part.

[HEyHEY]

21. Hey cheer up

Xmas is just another day on the calendar.....

Best wishes

[jus_the_facts]

27. Thanks...

...best wishes to you and yours.

[buddhamama]

22. ahhh, sweetie

it's not your fault. please don't say blame yourself.

i know it's not easy but, try and stay positive, for your Dad at least.

i am awfully sorry. love and peace to you this holiday. :hug:

[jus_the_facts]

28. Sure hope it's not....was my knee jerk reaction to the news is all....

....I'm tryin' reeeeal hard to stay positive...but feelin' quite with this sore throat and was the first thing I thought of...peace and love to you too. :hug:

[Tripper11]

23. I am really sorry to hear this jus-the-facts

Are you sure the leukemia is bacK? It could just be a nasty fever. When I was going through treatment I was home doing well in remission and got fever's out of no where and had to go into the hospital and get anit-biotics until it went away. With all the tests they would do while I was there, they never found out why I had them.
You know more then I, but this is just one possible scenerio, I would rather hear of your Dad fighting a fever then his leukemia coming back.
Lots of positive good thoughts heading your way my friend.
Tell your Dad to stay tough, and be as positive as you can.
WOuld you be able to visit him if you were to gown up and wear a mask? I highly doubt it, but it might be worth asking the nurses or doc.

[jus_the_facts]

29. I wouldn't want to take any chances goin' up there...

....but they did say he was back in remission..he had a consolidation chemo treatment and got outta the hospital last week....he had to have plateletts day before yesterday...now this....thank you so much for your kind words....when I first posted this I was upset and irrational...pissed off that our plans are shot for spendin' the holiday together without any f'n hospitals!

[SammyWinstonJack]

24. sorry to hear that

My thoughts are with you and yours. :hug:

[jus_the_facts]

30. Thank you very much....

:hug:

[XanaDUer]

31. So sorry to hear this...

Here is a hug for the holidays!


:pals:

[jus_the_facts]

36. Thanks...I needed that...

:pals:

[ElsewheresDaughter]

32. sorry to hear this....speedy recovery to you and yours

[jus_the_facts]

35. Thank You....

:)

[chefgirl]

33. So sorry to hear your bad news

We are in the same boat it seems. My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer about two months ago. She was in the hospital and had radiation and chemo and was tolerating both so well that she was released. We were all very happy and feeling very positive.
Then, last Thursday she was rushed to the hospital with a very high fever and put on antibiotics until they got it under control. Of course this prevented her from regaining the strength she had lost after radiation and chemo, so now, instead of releasing her, they moved her to a rehab hospital just this afternoon.
She's very lonely and sad, and when I read your story, I couldnt help but feel so deeply for you and your Dad and what you are both going through.
Yeah, Christmas is just another day, but it means so much to be able to spend it with our parents, especially once we become adults and realize our time together is only getting shorter with every passing year.
I will say most heartfelt prayers for you and your Dad on this Christmas Eve, and wish you both Christmas miracles. :hug:

-chef-

[jus_the_facts]

34. Thanks so very much...you and your Momma will be in mine as well....

....wishin' ya'll miracles too. :hug: :loveya: