My Grandma died this morning...

[Ariana Celeste]

She'd been battling cancer for years. Every time they thought they got rid of it, it would come creeping back. She'd gotten to the point where she was going in for dialysis 3 days a week and couldn't work anymore. Then a little over a week ago she became really ill pretty rapidly... and found out that the cancer had spread even more.

So after years of dealing with constant treatments, gaining and losing hope over and over, suffering physically and emotionally, she made the decision to just let go. She was a strong woman to make that decision, in my opinion. The last week had been one of the most painful weeks for her, particularly last night. My mom, uncle, aunts, and Grandpa were there for her last night- they all stayed the night with her. And we are all relieved that she went peacefully in her sleep- in her own bed, like she wanted.

I've spent the last week grieving, since the moment my mom let me know Grandma was giving up her treatment. So now I am only really worried for my mom, and our family. Especially my mom- as the older child she is taking it on herself to be the strong one... at least until she is alone. I wish I could be there for her, but I can't afford to fly out there. She knows that though- she told me to never feel guilty for not coming out there, that everyone knows that I love my Grandma and all of them.

So if anyone can think some good thoughts for my family... I'd really appreciate it. It kills me to know how much they must be hurting right now.

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[Mutley]

1. ...

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Ariana Celeste]

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[Oeditpus Rex]

2. Aw, girl...

:hug:

[Ariana Celeste]

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:hug: Always tough to deal with.

[NewWaveChick1981]

3. I'm so sorry.

:hug: :hug: :hug: I know how painful that is. I'm sending sympathy vibes your way. My best to you and your family.

[Ariana Celeste]

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:hug: Thanks so much. Like I said, I'm more worried for them. :(

[bigwillq]

4. I am very sorry for your loss sweetie.

:hug: My thoughts are with you and your family at this very difficult time. :hug:
If there's anything that I can do, please let me know. :pals:
At least Grandma is in a better place now. The suffering is over. That's the one bright side to this awful situation.


RIP Grandma Celeste. :hug:

[Ariana Celeste]

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:hug: Thanks, hun. If anything you could check up on me later, :). And you are right. I'm thankful that her pain is over.

[brook]

8. Condolences

and :grouphug: to you, your Mom and all the family.

Your dear Grandma was indeed lucky to have passed in her own bed, with loved ones with her. If a death can be termed 'a good one', that indeed is the definition. Take comfort in that -and that she is now free of the pain and disease that she endured for so long. She's at peace and would want you to be also.

When things settle down, maybe your Mom could come to you for a visit?

[Ariana Celeste]

10. Thanks

I agree, and I'm thankful that my family had the "sense" to know it was her time and be there for her- they trusted their guts and got together for her. Better than a hospital bed alone.
I'm doing what I can to have my mom come out- may be a while but I'm going to help her pay for it- would be good for her. (And me)

:hug:

[Call Me Wesley]

11. Safe passage to your grandmother.

Might her suffering be over. Peace and comfort to you and yours. :hug:

[Ariana Celeste]

12. Thank you

:hug: That's what matters... her suffering is over. I'm getting all teary eyed again... need to make some tea I think.

[devilgrrl]

13. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Good thoughts and prayers headed your way. :hug:

[wildhorses]

14. I am sorry for your loss and will remember your family in my

prayers.:hug: