Who do I feel like this is the final summer?

[Deja Q]

My health has been declining despite attempts to improve my condition, so I know my time is coming. But even I don't see that as much of a concern as what's controlling Washington that;s going to soon impact us all. It ain't people.

I anticipate an attack that will allow * to precipitate martial law, which will keep any inssurectionist elements to a minimum. Not that people would rebel anyway; they didn't in the 1930s... and today people are more selfish than ever thanks to policies of the last 25 years designed to make people more selfish and spiteful than they were before. (and I doubt all of them had been assaulted, bullied, molested, and/or taunted as children, so they can't use that excuse.)

The difference with me is that I've never been able to relate to people; I'm feeble and awkward and lonely as hell. To compensate I put more time, energy, and even emotion into objects and things pertaining to my hobbies (photography, television). I'm not sure I can live without them, for they are to me as a long lost love is to normal people.

If I could live life over, I wouldn't know WHAT to change. I'd still be just as gullible and easy-to-abuse, just in other ways.

This afternoon I'm going out for a nice long walk. I hope it isn't too hot. The weather, that is. Maybe I'll meet someone that I click with. I doubt it. That happened only once, over 10 years ago, and I was too thick to understand what was going on.

[mcscajun]

1. Just because....

:hug:

[Birthmark]

2. First off...

Good luck with your health. I don't think we've conversed much, but I always enjoy reading your posts. I wish you nothing but good luck and good health, sir.

As for your main point: I feel that the wheels will begin to come off around September of this year. But I don't think that it will be because of terrorism. It's the economy that will begin falling apart, imo. To explain this fully would take more time and effort than I can put into it right now. I'll simply say that consumer spending will drop off appreciably and that the housing bubble will either begin to deflate or outright burst. It's all downhill from there.

PS: I have NEVER made such a prediction before. I'm usually allergic to apocalypses of all types. Even minor apocalypses make me break out in a rash. But I don't see any real way around economic collapse.

[billyskank]

3. I think there's certainly a storm coming

Not just economic. I fear there is a war coming. A real one, one which will actually affect us rather than one of those video game wars you watch on telly where only foreigners die.

[Ready4Change]

4. Relating/Clicking:

A personal story.

In 1992 I was involved with running an online forum. (BBS's at the time, via modems, but I digress.) The forum had developed a lively community, and they decided to hold a convention. At that convention someone told me that "that" guy over there was "P51Pilot" (online name changed to protect the innocent, or something like that) and he wanted to talk to me. So I wander over, wondering what was up, did he want to discuss the running of the BBS? Did he have some comments regarding the subject matter of the BBS? etc...

We meet, quick intros, and .... awkward silence. It took me a few moments and I suddenly realized: He didn't want to talk about "stuff.". He just wanted to meet this guy he'd been talking with all this time.

From this I got 2 insights. First, online interactions are real interactions. I didn't feel a need to "get to know" P51Pilot. I felt I already knew him, and was ready to hit the ground running with "stuff" even though we'd never met in person.

But second, we are more than interactions regarding "stuff." Person to person interactions, either online or in the real world, are really important to people. There are times to just clear the stuff out of the way and find people.

I've had some interesting posts with you in the past, HypnoToad. And I look forward to many more in the future. Enjoy your walk, and come back soon!

[Deja Q]

5. Thanks!

:hug:

I shall come back and keep a smile on. :D

[undeterred]

6. This week I was offered a permanent job

for the first time in 4 months and 3 years. The world looks totally different than it did a week ago. It feels like the end of hell, although I have a long way to go to become financially stable. I know so many other people at DU have been in that hell with me. After this week I can say, if we keep trying, eventually there is a light at the end of this tunnel.

I hope you're next. :thumbsup:

[libodem]

7. Gosh Hypno

I had you pegged as one of the 30-somethings in the lounge, I didn't realize you had chronic health problems. Hope you get better. Maybe your walk will stir up some endorphines and you'll cheer up. You have faithful fans here in the lounge.:hug:

[Deja Q]

9. Oh, I'm a 30-something with chronic health problems.

:D

It's homo pride sell cheap trikets festival in Minneapolis today. I'll be leaving shortly... Likely the last one and the last 7 I've been to were pretty pointless all the same. :-)

[catmandu57]

8. I feel it to Hypno

I'm sorry for your physical condition, but I have this feeling that the line "The dead were the lucky ones" is going to come true with a vengence.
This feels like the heavy air before the storm comes, and there's not a damn thing we can do to stop it. Sometimes it feels kind of hopeless to even try.
You know I can relate to the feeling of aloneness, I'm lucky enough to have my wife, but I don't have any friends left, they're gone, some, a good many are dead now, and after my last good friend died in 98 I just haven't put forth any effort to fill the void.
Truth be known, DU is my life now, I come on here from the time I get up, untill late in the day, and I still find myself standing alone here.
I share a common interest with everyone here, and a few tighter ones, but I can't say that I have friends here.
Hopefully, you'll find someone to connect with, I really wish it for you.
Hang in there, maybe I'm wrong and we'll come through to a better world, if we do then I'll see you and all the others here then, rick.

[ScreamingMeemie]

10. Hypno, you've always "clicked" with me. 6 months ago, I was in a bed in

I.C.U., thinking end game. Today, each day is a gift, whether nature or this administration takes my tomorrows away...I've got today. And I'm glad.

It is my optimistic belief that many in this country are waking up...that change will come, that our country will be restored to us. Please hold hands with me...and together we'll see it happen.

Always a friend,

Laura :hug:

[Beware the Beast Man]

11. Take a break.

Take a break from whatever is making you anxious, whatever you feel if out of the realm of your control. Yep, I',m talking to myself here. I am a notorious "What-if"er as well. Don't let this consume you.

[Ishoutandscream2]

12. What a touching post

I am so sorry for your health problems. Since Bush entered office, I have had to go on anti-depressants. Granted, other events have happened in my life (adopting a 5 week old invant whose mother suddenly died at my old age of 41), but I blame the turn of this country the last 5 years for my "afflictions."

I'm like you - I feel I can't relate to folks anymore. Where I live, Bushbots roam everywhere. I'm like a fish out of water. I can't watch TV for news or even read the paper (granted, it's that radical right wing rag the Dallas Morning News). I have written an LTTE to our local small town paper, but it's just "ol' James spouting his radical spin."

Keep your chin up. Keep living. Things will get better. I believe some good news on the political front will bring you around. Victory will come -TRUST ME! Instant Karma is coming, and the Republicans are aobout to be hit with it big time.