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After having seen Star Wars Episode III, I am having a crisis of morality.
I have always considered myself a relatively good person; I mean it's not like I go out and fuck people over. I give money to people in need when I can and I keep my loved ones safe.
I realized however, like Anakin, I would do anything to save my true love. There is no limit to my anger simmering just beneath the surface. I am filled with hatred at the evils of the world. If someone came to me and convinced me that with their help, I could save my loves life --- but the catch was that I had to kill "just a few people"; I would do it. Without hesitation or mercy.
By the same token should she be hurt or killed, there is no end to the torrent of violent destruction I would unleash in the name of revenge. I would fill the streets with blood, all for an ideal of love that would have beccome so distant that it no longer carried any meaning.
All of that scares me. It scares me that inside, I am Darth Vader. What am I to do though? Like Anakin I am trapped by fate; the decisions I make are not mine to make --- they are essentially made for me and simply happen. By then there is no choice, only reaction.
It also puts me in a moral quandry regarding Government.
The general theme of the Sagas is that when your democracy turns to dictatorship, rebellion is the answer. However, in Episode III, Obi-Wan and Yoda go into hiding, rather than trying to organize a rebellion. Is the answer then to sit and "wait it out" until a popular uprising is inevitable?
I am conflicted right now. I want to be on the Light side; but the power of the Dark side is overwhelming.
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