So, half of my college career is over. ((reflection time))

[WindRavenX]

That's scary as shit. In two years...I'm out there, in this pyschotic and schitzophrenic world.
These past two years have been the most meaningful and valuble years of my life; I've discovered myself and have had a lot of revelations on personal and spiritual (if you can call it that). Mainly, I've just developed a lot as a person in every way that is possible.
I was 100% correct that getting out of Oregon was the best thing that could happen to me. I think when I was young in New Jersey before my family moved to Oregon, I must have had the chemical dependence of living in an urban enviroment imprinted on me- my first memories are walking down by the WTC with my father near his law office. I remember the smell of the city even to this day. Getting out of Oregon has saved me.
Other fronts:

*family: This is the perhaps the front that has suffered the most. I've realized the magnitue of just how fucked up my family is, from the alcoholism and the drug use, to the just plain psychological inbalance that is my father. Realizing that I can't be around my father for more than a few days was incredably sad. It made me realize that if/when the day comes for me to settle down and start a family, you better bet your collective asses that it's going to be after a strong foundation has been laid- emotionally, financially, the whole shabang.
*academic: I've learned a LOT about the subjects I've always wanted to: Theology, Philosophy, and yes, even mfing Calculus. I don't care about grades that much, seeing as how I'm just a BA in biology and not a BS (pre-med). It's much more enjoyable.
*human relationships. Much better than I expected, but the level of psychological disturbances in my relationships with the male gender has even suprised me. But I am happy to have loved, and be loved in return. I'm now a better person, stronger, and less willing to deal with bullshit after the latest fiasco.
College life has been disapointing. I like to party it up like the next person, but the fuck-and-run culture and the hyprocrisy of dealing with this sickens me and has made me turn to going off campus for human relationships.

Am I a better person than I was two years ago. Absolutely.
I'm happy to be alive, and I want to see more of the world.
But I hope the next two years are better...I really do.
So, woo. There you go.

[WI_DEM]

1. Believe it or not

if you play your cards right the best is yet to come. Congratulations on Two successful years of college--it sounds like you have really gotten a lot out of it and that is what College is supposed to be about--self discovery, gaining independence and learning.

[chickenscratching]

2. unfortunately

the worst is yet to come

[WindRavenX]

4. Naw, I don't believe that

I really don't.

[chickenscratching]

7. me neither

[MissB]

3. The next two years

will fly right by.

You don't like Oregon? :cry:

[WindRavenX]

6. Sorry, I'm an urban chick

And Oregonians aren't as sarcastic as I need people to be =)

[DemExpat]

5. All the best, WindRavenX

I enjoyed reading about your development. Thanks for sharing!

:hug:

:kick:

DemEx

[bettyellen]

8. you are too cool and smart for you're age, thats all

after you're done with school watch out world!
because compared to most kids, you seem ready for it right now. i thought you were older based on our talk. you saw my jaw drop when you said dorm, right?

[WindRavenX]

9. hahah I remember that

It seems to happen. Most people think I'm 25+- which comes in handy in Boston, as I never get carded =)
Or maybe that's because I have fab knockers. Either way. :hi:

[bettyellen]

11. sure, the knockers help. no doubt!

but they don't get ya anywhere with me! LOL
:hi:

[stellanoir]

10. windravenX

Sweetie, if ever you need any support whatsoever then PM me.

I'm the one who assured you that no one would give you shit if you took off the Red Sox Hat after your initial appearance at last months event.

Just don't let your dorm mates get you down.

You'll be fine darling.

You've got spunk.

[tjdee]

12. It's SO much easier to meet people in college. Sigh.

Your post made me nostalgic....college, even at its suckiest, was a great time. When I left I was ready to go, but it's so much harder to meet and bond with people at that level ever again.

When I went to orientation, they had playing "These are Days" by 10,000 maniacs....and it was a perfect song for a perfect time.

:cry:

Of course, it's hard to feel that way at the time! Hope your second half is better than the first.

[WindRavenX]

13. Meeting people in college as been tough for me

I'll be honest, I am not into the hook-up culture. I like a lot of people here, but in terms of romantic interests? It's tough. Too many politically apathetic people...and that is a huge turn off for me ...

[GalleryGod]

14. (Chorus up ) I Lovvvvvvvvve New York...IIIIIIII Lovvvvve New York

Your last two years will be like a tobaggon ride...hold fast to each moment...squeeze hard...Sense of purpose in front of you, sense of humor beside you.

In the end....come back to The City, the Big One.:applause: :popcorn: :applause:

[WindRavenX]

15. YOU KNOW IT!!!

Hopefully, I'll be teaching in the Bronx in two years...and I mean that.

[GalleryGod]

16. The City that Never Sleeps will welcome you with Open Arms.

It has been doing it since "New York in the 50's" ( a great book BTW, by Dan Wakefield!).

[progmom]

17. hey babe

you are doing great.
this time of your life is a great time for self-discovery.
it's also a time of transition. i went remember making large-scale changes in my social life and circle of friends midway through my college career. you have to find people who share a similar value structure and world perspective. once you do, you'll realize you really aren't in this alone.

and when all else fails, you have your DU friends.
anytime you wanna talk, drop me a line.

:hug: