Ever feel guilty about not saying something at the right time?

[Solon]

Yesterday I was on my route as an Ice Cream man, right after school, my first customer was this guy with his 3 year old daughter. He bought some ice cream for her and himself, THEN he goes on a rant about "niggers" and the city he lives in here in Missouri (Maplewood) and all this other shit and how he moved here from California, and moving out of Maplewood soon, etc. The thing I hated the most was that I was so in shock, I couldn't really do anything, didn't even just drive away, I just sort of nodded and grunted a little bit, then said I had to go and make more sales, he was holding me up. I don't know what I'm most offended by or embarrassed about, whether it was my own inaction in this case, I wanted so much to call him an asshole and fucking racist, or the fact that he thought I would agree with him on his stupid ass fucking rant. Why the fuck are white people so fucking racist? I'm one and I don't understand it.

The thing about it is this, I was free to call him whatever I wanted, I can't get "fired" from my job, I'm a sub-contractor, I can do what I want, as long as I don't defraud the company I contracted to. This is still pissing me off even a day later. I should have said or done something, Godsdamn it all to hell, and now I feel guilty about it. :(

[Lavender Brown]

1. I would not have taken his money

But, I can understand being tongue-tied, it happens to me at moments like that too. :shrug: I feel sorry for his daughter for having a racist asshole as a father.

[Solon]

2. I probably wouldn't of, if I didn't already make the exchange...

Already had the money in hand, he had the ice cream, then he goes on his stupid fucking rant, I hate being tounge tied, it was stupid.

[Nicholas D Wolfwood]

3. "Why are white people so fucking racist?"

Perhaps in this country racism is defined as white people having an ignorant hatred of minorities, but I can very much assure you that racism is not unique to either America or caucasians. Since the day that concepts of tribe or nation began, so too began racism.

[Solon]

4. I know that...

intellectually, but I never experienced it with any of my friends of other races, I'm white, so that opens up racist whites to ranting about friends and family of my own they don't know about. They automatically assume I would agree with them because I'm the same color as them, its aggrivating to say the least.

[Nicholas D Wolfwood]

5. Well, it's the comfort part of it.

Racists are the way they are out of fear and a basic, primal instinct to favor one's own 'herd' over others. So for racists to be open about their beliefs usually requires a rather safe setting, ie. other members of their race being predominantly present. That automatically means that you're not very likely to hear a similar conversation being held by people of other races than your own. That said, I have no doubt it occurs more frequently in white people in this country simply because caucasians are the vast majority.