I'm thinking of going back into therapy

[demnan]

I have some unresolved issues with my mother, evidently. I have dreams where I'm really angry with her all the time, and I'm nasty toward her. (we actually have a pleasant relationship, but there are issues that I wish were different). This isn't the first time I've had that dream, either. I know there are issues I have with her that I would never confront her with, after all, she's 83 years old and legally blind and we are close and she depends on me. I'm 48 years old for Christ's sake.

I also have nightmares where I still live with her in her house. These nightmares shake me to the bone, as I would never go back and live with her under her current circumstances with my two brothers who freeload off her, neither work, and let the house run down to the point that is is filthy.

Last night I had one of each of these dreams, so I'm thinking maybe it's time I went back to therapy to resolve some of this resentment and guilt.

[latebloomer]

1. Sounds like it might be a good idea

It would be a lot easier for you to deal with her and help her if you have another outlet to release and explore all the negativity. I'm sure every time you visit her under those circumstances it stirs up all kinds of stuff.

[LiberalEsto]

2. Sounds worthwhile

from what you described. You deserve peace of mind.

It sounds like you have plenty of valid reasons to be angry with your brothers.

[elehhhhna]

3. can't hurt, might help.

You sound really stressed.

Bless you--you're a good child.

[Redstone]

4. Well, why not?

If your knee hurt, you'd go to an orthopedic doctor, wouldn't you?

I have this conversation with people all the time. There's nothing wrong with going to a shrink if you need to. It doesn't mean you're weak or crazy or anything else.

Go do whatever you think will help you feel better.

Redstone