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i went on a trip this weekend past to visit a very good friend who had moved away. shortLy after our arrivaL (myseLf and ms. sniffa), we were joined by some guy (who i just assumed was a friend of my friend). he was cooL (and hot, woot!) but i didn't drive 5 hours to hang out with him.
anyhow, the guy is from NJ, and is a friend of (i'm just gonna name them now, my friend = Lchick; stranger she cavorted with = todd.) Lchick's new roomate whom she had just met - in other words, a compLete stranger. we came, pLanning on spending the weekend, so we packed 3 days worth of cLothes and necessities. todd, Lives 30 min. away so brought nothing. he stayed the entire weekend. todd and Lchick ended up hooking up and cuddLing and such - i'm not against that by any means... it's just Lchick seemed to spend an exhorbitant amount of time with him and not us.
during our trip, we pLanned on doing aLL the touristy shit, but much of our agenda went unfuLfiLLed whiLe accomodating todd's whims.
so anyhow, i was kinda upset about the situation at the time, but not so much that i wouLd say something (i Like to bLame myseLf first for being overLy sensitive, or just crazy). as i was driving back, it started to hit me that i was angry - how dare she put us on the back burner, and for a stranger no Less?
i had aLready made up my mind to speak to Lchick about it, and inform her that next time i visit her, that she not do that (or anything simiLar again).
ms. sniffa agreed that it was very shitty of her to do that, but i shouLd not bring it up because it wiLL hurt her feeLings. i argued that, "so we shouLd spare her feeLings for the sake of ours' being hurt?" - her repLy: "our feeLings are aLready hurt; there's no need to make her feeL bad too"
so i chew that over - i'LL decide Later if i shouLd say something or not.
today i'm back at work and it hit me that i'm not angry about what happened (aLmost ignoring us the whoLe trip) - i'm reaLLy fucking upset about it. i'm hurt. my heart hurts. and that sucks!
shouLd i be upset about this? shouLd i mention to her, that my feeLings were hurt? shouLd i mention that i'd Like to have hang out with us next time? shouLd i just "get over it" as someone toLd me?
so that's my rant
ps: i shouLd hopefuLLy have some good pics of the trip.
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