Reply #13: Rick is RIGHT! ;) [View All]

[FirstLight]

If i release the resistance, everything falls into place and the messages from the universe are only getting clearer...

HUGE steps, like the past month or so of resistance was just me letting it all come OUT, even knowing while i was behiving recklessly or indulging in destructive behaviors, that THIS TO SHALL PASS. I watched myself, knowing i was saying 'fuckit' and putting on my blinders...also knowing that sooner or later my spirit was going to yank them off and toss them aside...and i would be forced to see my reality. AND, that my reality really isn't so bad....
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check this out: on a personal note, i have had a crush on an old friend from college that i reconnected with in my meditation class. Dan is a yoga teacher, vegetarian, highly evolved... and really sweet. He'd flirt with me in Unity services all through spring, and ironically moved in a block away about the same time summer started...
then he got a new job and basically fell of the face of the earth. so I felt weird trying to connect when it obviously wasn;t happening... oh, and we are both capricorns, so i am sure we have both been mirroring the same struggle thatt past couple months, so it's interesting we have both been reclusive while dealing with the 'stuff'
(meanwhile the unhealthy guy from last summer has been sniffing around my skirts again, and under the guise of me being a good friend, he's been telling me all about his other women issues and wanting me to make him feel better...he blatantly told me that if I come out to party tonight i would be free to seduce him and he would be willing... ugh...instant gratification, but not good for me at all)

so this morning i got a wild hair to stop by Dan's work and say hi ...which i haven't done in about a month cus i thought he 'didn't like me like that'... and he was thrilled to see me, hugs and kisses on the cheek right in front of customers and coworkers! He invited me to his yoga class on the beach tomorrow morning, and it's like we never lapsed.
:sigh: Just that kiss on the cheek is enough to make my whole week!


so i have my answer, don't I?
Not going out to get laid and party tonight, going to bed early for Yoga tomorrow on the beach ! yay!